Catguin's Playground

I am being discriminated

2009-05-14T07:51:00.000-07:00

I was said this sentence by someone

Him/Her : Cynthia, you do know because of your body size what you say does not make sense? I think all the fat must have gone to your head. I simply do not believe in your ideas for business and event management.

Now thats a knife right into the heart.

My Whole Body IS ACHING!

2009-05-12T05:21:00.000-07:00

First Sentence

!@#$%^&*()()*(^&^#$@$*(&(%^*%^*^*^)*

lol....

Forward mails

2009-04-23T01:32:00.000-07:00

Nowdays there are tons of advice on all of those cure and poisonoues stuff we encounter everyday. If we were to follow them... this is what is going to happen

Thanks to you, I no longer open a public bathroom door without using a paper towel.

I can't use the remote in a hotel room because I don't know what the last person was doing while flipping through the adult movie channels.

I can't sit down on the hotel bedspread because I can only imagine what has happened on it since it was last washed.

I can't enjoy lemon slices in my tea or on my seafood anymore because lemon peels have been found to contain all kinds of nasty germs including feces.

I have trouble shaking hands with someone who has been driving because the number one pass-time while driving alone is picking your nose (although cell phone usage may be taking the number one spot).

I can't touch any woman's purse for fear she has placed it on the floor of a public bathroom. Yuck!

I must send my special thanks to whoever sent me the one about poop in the glue on envelopes because I now have to use a wet sponge with every envelopethat needs sealing.
Also, now I have to scrub the top of every can I open for the same reason.
I no longer have any savings because I gave it to a sick girl (Penny Brown) who is about to die in the hospital for the 1,387,258th time.

I no longer have any money at all, but that will change once I receive the $15,000 that Bill Gates/Microsoft and AOL are sending me for participating in their special e-mail program.

I no longer worry about my soul because I have 363,214 angels looking out for me, and St. Theresa's novena has granted my every wish.
I no longer eat KFC because their chickens are actually horrible mutant freaks with no eyes or feathers.

I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a water buffalo on a hot day.

Thanks to you, I have learned that my prayers only get answered if I forward an email to seven of my friends and make a wish within five minutes.

Because of your concern I no longer drink Coca Cola because it can remove toilet stains.

I no longer can pump petrol without taking someone along to watch the car so a serial killer won't crawl in my back seat when I'm pumping gas..

And thanks for letting me know I can't boil a cup of water in the microwave anymore because it will blow up in my face...disfiguring me for life.

I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be pricked with a needle infected with AIDS.
I no longer go to shopping malls because someone will drug me with a perfume sample and rob me

I no longer receive packages from UPS or FedEx since they are actually Al Qaeda in disguise.

I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to Jamaica, Uganda & Singapore and Uzbekistan.

I no longer buy expensive cookies from Famous Amos since I now have their recipe.

Thanks to you, I can't use anyone's toilet but mine because a big brown African spider is lurking under the seat to cause me instant death when it bites my butt.

And thanks to your great advice, I can't ever pick up $5.00 dropped in the parking lot because it probably was placed there by a sex molester waiting underneath my car to grab my leg.

If you don't send this e-mail to at least 144,000 people in the next 70 minutes, a large dove with diarrhea will land on your head at 5:00 PM this afternoon and the fleas from 12 camels will infest your back, causing you to grow a hairy hump. I know this will occur because it actually happened to a friend of my next door neighbor's ex-mother-in-law's second husband's cousin's beautician...

Have a wonderful day...

Oh, by the way....
A German scientist from Argentina, after a lengthy study, has discovered that people with insufficient brain activity read their e-mail with their hand on the mouse.

Don't bother taking it off now, it's too late...........

My house was on fire

2009-04-14T08:30:00.000-07:00

Yes... My house was on fire. It was not a big fire, small one tho, done by some people's careless (and the person often say i am careless) act. No harm, but i wanna show you how much can a very small candle (those lantern canckes) can do to your bathroom. If i was 10 Minutes later, i guess i have to remodel my toilet.

Next is some food pictures taken by the cybershot phone. I love this phone actually. Just to show off lol...

How dating my ex was like playing Dota with a Noob~

2009-04-13T11:15:00.000-07:00

Well its true that i might not as handsome as omniknight, or as machoas roshan, but still, im at least 24 lvl better then ur current pudge.

I always try to be a good omniknight .I heals you when you hurt, GA and Repel ur ass when u are rushing alone into drow , rylai and lina with only 50 hp and a bunch of mana & hp potion in ur inventories which u never use.

U cant blame me if u get own by those chicks when my GA and Repel runs off man. I cant be ur support unit endlessly, wat do you think? i have infinite mana pool and no cooldown or sumthing?? I need to regen and Cooldown man.

Kept complaining that my hp is low, y mana not enough, wearing same old amours bla bla bla..

Hey man, how the hell am i goin to farm my items when you keep asking me to supporting ur ass while u keep rushing to the enemy without thinking...I need some private times to farm and earn man...Everytime when u get ur ass in trouble u expect me to be right beside u..hey girl..i cant always teleport to you once u Gangbang by some stunners or Invins. I aint no furion ok.

well at least give me like 30 min to farm alone for a boots of travels or sumthing.whenever i wanted to farm alone or gang bang with my teamates.....u will use ur imba cooldown shaman's shackles to shackle my neck...wth

U see ..u cant expect me to change my build as u like, i need proper planing and time to farm. FYI, i need 2200 gold to convert boots of speed to boots of travels.Give me some space and time!!

Fighting with you is like fighting with mega creeps with all the raxes down, it never end man.. it keep on coming and it gets stronger and stronger and it grows FATTER as well...juz like sometimes i juz wish that i can have Faceless void's Timestop to freeze of our first 3 days.....

which i barely remeber....

Anyway, what i hate the most about u ....is that u have an imba ulti usage of Nerubian Weaver's Time Lapse..

Whenever we solve a problems... u will some how recreate and reconstruct the same old F-ing problems...its like whenever i heal u.. u Time Lapse... i heal again u, u Time Lapse again.. WTF man... u endless low hp faggotz.... y cant u juz heal up and stop the gay ulti... it kinda waste my mana u know...

Sometime i juz wish to suicide bomb my self into enemy rather then keep on healing u...

luckily i met this guy call Enigma,we came out a plan which he can help me to ditch u in a hole call "black hole" and so u will be gone for eternity...

too bad its was a fail attempt... it looks like enigma's black hole cant suckup own alied... damn i tot she's an enemy...

the only option now is either i leave the game or i Pull the Plug... but too bad.. being a leaver will spoil my name and my stats... should i PP?? well... i aint getting ban just becoz a noob... so hows suppose to do this shit??

while i planing to solve her out ... a fat ass pudge actually hook her out from my sight and solve all my problems.. on top of it all, he said "FRESH MEAT!"i replied "LOL, yeah rite...anyway thanks man!...oh ya... Rot to hell b****!!"

Sick of Studying

2009-04-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

I have been reading and reading and memorizing and understanding the MLC for the last few weeks. I now know how exactly Alvin feels, two days ago, i only slept 4 hours and continue to study each time i have the chance. And if i did not recall wrongly, alvin's requirement is minimum 5 hours of study (correct me if i am wrong) and trust me.... this is really sickening. I now really know how he must have felt. I am seriouslly trying my best and if this does not work still..... I have nothing to say but to change course to graphic designing.

Today i had a small arguement with someone, and I can tell she and I was irritated. and I BET that tonight at 5pm, JS and WM will have a hard time during the drive home. I simply DO NOT understand why does the person NEED to collect the cash first to CLOSE account then distribute the claims again. Since you close the account already, how to distribute? Reopen the account??? I dont mind giving her the money, if it means so much to you, god take it! But I simply do NOT understand WHY the person need to collect the cash from ME and then redistribute the money back to ME!

Then I caught the person, she does not have the receipt. I bet the person was afraid I ran away with the MEASLY RM50. I understand PERFECTLY if you are afraid that i ran away with the money or if it is a large sum that involves 3-4 people, but you see, its the money the event OWES me and you still need to pay me! What is wrong with contra????? Why the extra work? Honestly....I can only say one word

STUPID.

Yes, flame me all you want, be if it was you whom i mention on the blog, or friends who are close to the person, be if you cant stand what i said, then come and tell me off. Im ready when you are. I told you off today, I can tell you off again.

And i doubt the person understood what i said as the person kept on insisting i take the cash (say on day 1) and i found out i do not need it (day 3) then give back (day 3 - day 6) and then take it again to use it on another stuff (day6)

so I must go on a wild goose chase?????????

Sien....

Anyhow, back to redang... also another sien case.... People are not complaining that RM320 for 3days 2 night is very expensive. Stupid DSA ignores our existance. Chase them daily. Another sien case.

And that Chin hong refuse to go redang, sien ^ 2. Informed chua bout this, he say he will "kau tim him". I wonder what that means. Does it mean like Alvin's "kau tim"?

Realised from the Music Club Committee that many friendship and relationship were wrecked or damaged due to Utar Idol. I sure hope mine is not.

I realised I have spent 10 minutes typing this where i could finish 1-2 pages of MLC. Bye Bye...

I am going to go ccccccrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaazzzzzzzzzzzzzyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~~~~~

2009-03-24T06:52:00.000-07:00

A dog has no use for fancy cars or big homes or designer clothes.
A waterlogged stick will do just fine.
A dog doesn't care if you'reclever or dull, smart or dumb.
Give him your heart and he will give you his.

A very special day..

2009-03-17T07:42:00.000-07:00

Today is a very special day for me, other than the fact that my aunt house was robbed and I didnt attend UTAR (yet again.....), one long long LOST friend called me. This friend used to be very special to me. We were friends since form 2 till form 5 and we were rather close. Maybe she was special to me and I was not to her. Actually I was my fault in the first place, I kinda abandon her during school time. I always have regretted and I never had the courage to talk to her before. But today, I realise I was wrong..

When she called today, i was SHOCKED! Her voice did not change much but her tone did. If i remember correctly, she used to be serious, fun but also easily hurted. I remember how she said words like "cynthia dont talk to me le..." to another of my friends. I remember everything I did to her and everything we did together. Yes, i thought once I was in love with her (i was only 13 okay? -_- Im dumb) but now I realise, I have thought too much. I manage to gather my courage to apologize to her and the best part is that she said "Actually, I didn't realise it. And I didnt went to find it out. Cause to me that time, it does not seem to matter"

I was not heartbroken, I was just shocked and then realise how dumb I am. I have just confirmed my hypothesis (or shall I say my grandpa's?) that the word friend have two moons, there aint no two moons in this earth and they can never be 100% true to you. Dont start flaming me, I know how friendship counts and how important and true sometime friendship may be, but what i am trying to say is that they won't sacrifice or feel for you the same way your family would or your loved one would. They could be 99% true, (I have 2! One in America and One in Paramount) but they won't give it all to you. Or shall I say, the closeness will not be there?

I fell one burden lesser. One regret lesser. I feel good. I realise that people change, alot. And as I count the friends I have, i am thankful, namely Chin Hong, Chua, Andy, Wai Meng, Hon Tong, Khai Yuen, Eugene, Chu Ann, Jess, Alvin, Kelvin Lim, Ivan (consider 1/2 friend la), alex, Jian Shin, ADRIAN PHUNG and many others.

And today, I have gain another friend.

And I expects flames from all the mean things I said. At the same time, I also wun expect anything as its RARE for any comment to reach my blog.

Bloooody helll!

2009-03-08T01:50:00.000-08:00

I was stuck in a jam for 50minutes and saw a accident

on the opposite line

malaysians are realbusybody looorrrr....lol...

So i snapped and posted.

Wonder what happen?? bomba also come

My doggie!

2009-03-08T01:46:00.000-08:00

Rescued doggie from spca

he has grown double his size after 2 weeks

If Condoms Have Sponsors

2009-02-05T20:21:00.001-08:00

Family of Afghan rape victim, 14, carry out forced 'honour' abortion with razor blade and no anaesthetic

2009-02-05T06:08:00.000-08:00

this is crazy....

The mother and brother of a 14-year-old Afghan rape victim hacked her stomach open with a razor before removing her unborn baby, it emerged today.

After the forced abortion, which was carried out without anaesthetic, the girl stitched up while the five-month-old foetus was taken away and buried.

The barbaric surgery took place in a stable. It has been claimed the family wanted to avenge their honour after the girl was assaulted.

Afghan women clad in distinctive blue burqas: There is still stigma and shame attached to sexual assault

After several days at home, her father took her to hospital where she is in a critical condtion.

Her relatives, who face criminal charges, had claimed she had been bitten by a dog.

Habiba Sarabi, Governor of Bamiyan Province where the abortion took placed, told the BBC a man accused of raping the teenager had been arrested.

He added police also intended to arrest her mother and brother.

Dr Ghulam Mohammad Nader, head of Bamiyan hospital, said the teenager had been able to tell officials what had happened to her.

'The girl stayed at home for three or four days in her condition until her father took her to hospital,' he told the BBC.

'He said a dog had bitten her so that people in the area wouldn't know what had really happened.'

Rape is a highly stigmatised subject in Afghanistan where sex outside marriage is illegal.

Some families resort to murdering their relatives in so-called honour killings in the wake of sexual assaults.

It is widely believed that women who are attacked are actually willing participants.

This is crazy. Rape Victim as willing participant??? What u expect the girl to do? Stuff her thing up with mud like polar bears during hibernation?!?! Its not like the guys where they can control their d*ck from stuffing into another person!! And the men get to roam free while the woman gets assulted again by family member as honor??? What honor? Barbaric honor?!

Chinese New Year 2!!!!

2009-01-30T07:04:00.000-08:00

Wishing ya all a Very Happy Chinese New Year!!!!! And Happy Cap Goh Mei!!!

Actually I have a question to ask. Where do they throw those oranges and is it really true that they find love that way? Im just curious >_<

Chinese New Year!!!

2009-01-30T06:38:00.000-08:00

Yup! Its chinese new year all right. And its about to end. This year, chinese new year was slightly special as some of my closes friend are not going back to their hometown as early as they thought because of their parents work and siblings examination. Anyhow, Chinese New Year was spend playing Mahjong and Eating at this restaurant where food is good and cheap.

We ate at Tenji's, Solaris Mont Kiara. We went there once, but we were rejected because they were booked for the next few days. Aint it crazy?! I reached there and the line was very very long. So i rebooked another date which is the chinese new year eve day.

And we finally got in. Eugene was with us and being the typical eugene, he reach my house at 9.30am where as i asked him to fetch me at 10.30am. When i saw his number calling me, i was like "kor, please tell me you just on the way" and his reply was "i'm outside your house." -_-lll

Anyhow, here is some picture of the place. Trust me, i DID NOT edit the photo using photoshop. And i was not allowed to take pictures too! Other than raw food, u can choose from chinese food to western to japanese teppanyaki and tempura to HAAGEN DEAZ ICE CREAMS!!

All of the above for only RM49.99. It is considered one of the cheapest buffet i have ever eaten. For such variety and quality. I give them an A-. Because their variaty is good (it has a serious range of cold japanese food to abalone slices to lobster to scallop to cod fish to lamb shoulder to thailand imported coconut to icre creams and chocolate fountain and also around 20 different types of tea you can choose from and 10+ juices and 5+ drinks u can select from) HOWEVER some of the food are just abit too rough. Not fine enough to be called total delicacy. LOL...

The oysters and huge btw....

Eugene's picture was watermarked in case of people stealing it ^^ Removeable immediately upon request.

Old post with heavy images

2009-01-20T23:26:00.000-08:00

This is some of the images of the so called "traveller's Den" new year eve party. Lol... only 6 people attended. So much for majority lol...

We had a blask at the kareoke session where we three (chin hong, ivan and me) tried our absolute best to cover the monotoned chua. He is now happily proclaming the title "hopelessly monotoned".....

We had our poor Adrian Phung and his gf waiting for us almost for an hour at pyramid. We were suppost to start eating at 6pm. But we only started LEAVING mid valley at 6pm. I got almost 20 missed calls >_<>_<....

Anyway, the food there was just okay for this time round. Oh well, so much for consistancy... I'll fast forward to the gift exchange process.

First to open his gift was our dear Secretary. Who seem to be very enthusiastic.

Quote " this very YENG LEH!"

follow up... with our Dear Treasurer.

We actually took some time to get used to this set of cards. Which we played for 2 hours after the dinner at McD subang SS15. Without ordering any food.... lol..

Then is our Committee's GF

Up next will be our committee.

When posting for pictures.... everyone will tame down and hence, wun look too good in the picture... end up sad liow.

BUT... we have a special committee who is a cam-whore (opps) is a sporting person who has tons of pose to show you all..

As i though i can run away from being photographed.... Secretary and Adrian the committee remembered that i was the only one that was not photographed. Anyway, i took alot of effort to get this gift of mine which is from chua. We had to draw lots a few times because some people accidently drew the same gift they purchased (it was not being manipulated by me!!!) and somehow, finally everyone got their gift exchanged and i got my AGONG!

On and all, it was a fun trip. The only problem is that the tables were tooooooo far from each other. Which cause us not being able to hear whatever conversation being made. IF we could, it will be much more fun ^^

Everyone is stressed.

2008-12-22T05:27:00.000-08:00

Yes... Today i have a story to tell..

She has an appointment to meet, at 10.30am. It was 9am and she asked her other half to help her out in some documentations to be submitted to a particularly slow and politically idiotic department. On the fact that he was unable to accomplish the task, given already one week, she went on a hyper mode. She started to walk real fast,slammed the car door and scream at him. She then shout at the top of her lungs at him just asking the same stupid question "why why why!". A question that practically has no answers. Poor him had to endure such ear drumming torment as it took place in the car where voice is further echoed and there is no place for the voice to leak out.

Then she started to pull her hair and one whole bunch of strands of hair was plucked right from her scalp. Bits of hair skin was stuck on the hair strands and blood was found. It was miniscular. Upon feeling the pain and headache, she started crying loudly. Very loudly and long. It prolonged up to 13 km long. She never stopped. Even when the tears were no longer tears and it turned into slightly pink drop with blood as coloring. The other half was terrified and shocked, and worst of all, he was driving at top speed during the process.

She then feel tired and fell asleep. It was unsure if she fell asleep or she fainted. Even at very hot tempreture, she could not open her eyes. She started to calm down as her favourite song played. Trying to make her happy, he brought her to the nearby adult playground where swings are reinforced with metal steels and brought up higher for taller people. She sat, he pushed. She was too tired and accidently let go of the chain and she fell right into the ground. It was neight lucky or bad luck that she manage to find the strenght to hold on to the chain as she loses balance and start to slip off the swing. Instead of falling straight down, the swing dragged her on the rubbered and tarred floor, and ended it with a slight bump on the cement with her head. It seems like the swing was trying to take revenge on his behalf.

Terrified... he tried to hold on to her and pull her up, only to injure her more and snapped her elbow's joint. She laugh in pain.

Without explanation, you all know who the main character is, in real life. I conclude that a woman having post menstrul syndrom is officially declared "dangerous". And i myself am afraid of it.

I have tons of things to do, not because i voluntered, but it was handed to me as a sign of "help me or this event slomps!" and i have to juggle with being ultraman and superman all the time. Being with my guardian who does not understands life in uni does not allow me free time to do anything related to this, i can only ask and give dvice, but i seriouslly have limited time to do all those stupid designing stuff which somehow i was famous for after the public speaking subject.

I realised that my dear secretary is having the same feeling, he hates it that everyone is throwing things to him, i saw that he tried to command people to do, but it failed and even my boyfriend (who was not his committee) had to step in. It seems like everyone has forgotten that i have my life and he has his life to go on. I am not angry that my sec exploited my bf, in fact, i think it was a wise move considering the budget was wrongly done in a non logical way TWICE. I admit, as his vice chairperson, i am letting him do most of the work and only help him in sign of desperation. Why? Well, he seem reliable enough, but he seems like a person who can break apart easier than i do. And i do admit that i am actually monitoring his progress, silently, cause i trust him enough since he is responsible, yet i am careful cause i would not want any of the pangkor nightmare to repeat again.

When it comes to event, some item may seem to be common sense to me, but it is not to others. But i dont know, why does most of the people i know has to be poked before they move? Is it me who did no deligate the job well enough? Was it me who expect too high expectation of others? I guess i suck as a leader...

Speaking of leader... In the utar idol event, my chairperson thought that i am trying to make a point that "i exist" in a way such that i want people to respect and acknowledge me. When i saw his sms, i was actually offended, but then, i cooled down, this is not the first time. It happen before with others, since kindergarden, actually. I was referred to being bossy and "what also wanna take charge" and "i dont care about others as long as i wan it my way" and "i think i know more than others".

I was shocked to know alot of plan of publicity has been done and also alof of arrangement has been done that involves me which I WAS NO AWARE OF. I was shocked because it involves me and i do not know about it. I was also shocked as i was put in charge for publicity and i was up to my head thinking a way to publitise and suddenly, a whole plan as been arrange, helper being sorted, script done and i was unaware of it. I was only shocked, but i was not angry, i was actually relieved. But he could have informed me at least so i would not have been so stressed! I would not have known such stuff if i was not with my secretary (TD) and he told me about it.

My chairperson is in penang, utar idol is weeks away, and i have no knowledge of it up till now on what is going on, i heard what the event manager and program ehad talked with another trainer, and i must say i did not hear the full story, but i am sceptical. I prefer safe than sorry. My chairperson also promised me to keep me updated, but i hear no news from him till now, 9.56pm 22nd december 2008. I never blamed him for any of this, cause he was my close friend and i understand his piriority. I took the liberty to help him out then and i did so now, but it seems like this bunch of fast going committee and strong committee was afraid to talk to me. Yes. A person actually had to go thru SEVERAL channels just to get to me and inform me about her plan. And she actually said "cynthia very scary". Somehow, saying that makes me remember her more, i actually remember her name and face.

Chin hong mentioned to them that i am "holding the big flag" and they have to ask me when they do stuff. Actually, i only ment to inform me, but i dont mind if they misunderstand, its not the first time people hated me for that, it hurts, but life goes on and all can be erased with a day of game, godlike, dinner and yam cha with my close friends, who somehow all is male except 2 of them which is in tar and USA.

so sometimes, i seriously wonder, tears flood my eyes now and i keep on wondering, am i just to strong? fat? or just too manly to fit in with gals? Am i that scary? Is it the fact i am able to distinguish my feelings, highlight detail emotional issue and being striahgt to the point / cut troat bitch making me one of the Genghis karn? It was the world to me when chua was amazed that i am able to accept how emotional woman is and preach on how different people needs different ways of understanding yet it hurts when i am in outcast. I am, at the end, a girl, who understand no mandrine and is surrounded by guys daily. Each time my relative see me with so many guys, they bitch to my closer relative about how cheap i am. I dont mind, but sometime, word, hurts. It can go up to the extend of "she is fat mah, thats why she needs more man la, cheap mah"

so...... solution is should i be more feminin, take up mandrine, be "thick faced" and try my best to fit in with the gals? or i shall stay as myself and force the guys to wear skirt?

its amazing how i can come out with jokes and crazy ideas with tears in my eyes. I wonder if my emotional brain is actually fuctioning properly in the first place. Maybe due to the thousands of bumps to my head. Why cant i one day hit my head and turn into a math genius?? why?????? Maybe i should hit my head more in different angle to increase the chance of it happening.

something random

2008-12-20T07:38:00.000-08:00

ps

2008-11-28T03:22:00.000-08:00

What is the best Mojor for you?

2008-11-17T00:02:00.000-08:00

I tried.... and its always the same exact result, but this time i got something SLIGHTLY special

After answering so many question (which is actually quite obvious what result i get from aswering) i got a Tie breaker.

The came out a Tie breaker question which ask me to choose one of the following

1) I'm Creative and Artistic
2) I', good in management, i love to plan event, game, outings, I enjoy predicting the future based on judgement.

So those who know me, which one am i? Actually, i am very interested to know cuz i myself think i am both, even ivan think so. So what are u guy's comment?

anyway, i click one of them and got this

You Scored as HR/BusinessManagement
You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Human Resources Management or Business Management, or related majors (e.g., Entrepreneurship, Hospitality, International Business, Leadership, Public Administration, Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didnt think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests. Excellent minors for HR/Business majors include: Psychology, Sociology, or other areas of business like Economics, Finance, or Marketing. Please post your results in your myspace/blog/journal.

Visual&PerformingArts
100%
HR/BusinessManagement
100%
Accounting/Finance/Marketing
88%
Physics/Engineering/Computer
81%
English/Journalism/Comm
81%
Biology/Chemistry/Geology
69%
Psychology/Sociology
63%
PoliticalScience/Philosophy
50%
History/Anthropology/LiberalArts
44%
Education/Counseling
44%
French/Spanish/OtherLanguage
31%
Mathematics/Statistics
31%
Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health
25%
Religion/Theology 25%

wat do u think?

2008-11-14T03:57:00.001-08:00

as in title lol

一波未平，一波又起。

2008-11-06T07:26:00.000-08:00

well, 一波未平，一波又起。, i have to do traveller's den, i have to take care of monster, i have to take care of prob and stat (which i am slipping)

and now, i have to be entered into sjmc next week for full scan, suspect something on my "usus - usus " >_<

this morning chin hong said i masuk angin (not sot liow k) and i tot so too, but then the pain got worst and now it has moved to my usus usus (i dunno what it is called in english -_-) and i can barelly walk >_<

aih.... sienz

its amazing

2008-11-06T01:11:00.000-08:00

its amazing how people can have sex in such a public place and its more amazing how other people cud be so OBLIVIOUS to it

just some craps

2008-11-04T07:32:00.000-08:00

found this online ^^

I love my K810i

2008-10-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

Yes i love my k810i. If i can get a super camera for my bday, i wud have snapped more.

Here it goes

This is me with make up by an make up artist, Honestly, i find it hedious. At sight have agrees to one statement in my brain " I am a pork chop"

and even dear old ivan agrees to it. Trust me, he is gonna SUFFER for saying that.

It seems like people are not used to me in make up. Once i put on eye liner and when chin hong looked at me, he was stunned for few seconds and his body moved backwards in reaction (and that was real minor make up, i think). And even chua, he saw me in this make up (above) and he well, gave a more subtle reaction but never the less, shocked too.

Click on it to see a clearer view. It seems like its not so clear here. I SWEAR, there was no photoshop involved

It was Alvin's bday few days ago, I celebrated with him by showing him how i fully use business law in daily life. And i bought him a cake. With 20 french fries as candles. And he find it nice. Mayb i shd have put the candle by months? hmmmmm

And this... Yes, i bragged bout it once, i will bragged about it again. It is a spectacular item. It can be found all over the place in malaysia but NEVER in KL. And i mange to find such rare being!!!! This rice cost only RM2.10!!!!!!

Very Heavy Post - 4 - Italianese

2008-09-30T03:16:00.001-07:00

Here are some pictures of italianese, it was very old ago..... actually, and embaressing stuff happened, and i aint saying what no more

From Catguin's Playground

their fav cake, playing uno with cakes

From Catguin's Playground

too full edi

From Catguin's Playground

he was blushing when we talking about a gal waitress

From Catguin's Playground

and we didnt drink anything. Tho we suggested he drink the whole bottle of olive oil

From Catguin's Playground

desperate for more

From Catguin's Playground

our free dish

From Catguin's Playground

looks good, taste good, and its FREE

Very heavy post -3

2008-09-30T03:06:00.001-07:00

Yes, another heavy post

It is taken today, the day b4 raya, honestly, some thinks that 2mrw is raya, they can do anything they want.....Some malay gal offended me in pudu, and i wasn't gonna get myself gandbanged there. Those I was kinda pissed. They think they own the road.

From Catguin's Playground

This restaurant is very famous, it was extreamly packed when we arrived. And It is rather cheap.RM65 for 5 dishes for 4 rice. Ok what

From Catguin's Playground

This fish looks very cute, at the same time, looks like a snake -_- i am abit scared

From Catguin's Playground

and this stupid fish cost RM11...... I do not know what is the name of this fish, cuz everyone knows i am a banana....

I know its "something dragon"

From Catguin's Playground

wonder has money dropped that much?

From Catguin's Playground

Japanese koi. The most expensive koi there

From Catguin's Playground

buying 3 of this fish can pay my entire semester. And i can just imagine if their power supply just went black one day. There the money goes

From Catguin's Playground

their size in comparison to my finger

From Catguin's Playground

white koi

From Catguin's Playground

do u know how big this fish is?

From Catguin's Playground

take a rough guess

From Catguin's Playground

it is this big. In comparison to my baby monster, it is the same size actually...

From Catguin's Playground

and this turtle is as big as utar tables

From Catguin's Playground

the most beautiful koi there. RM118

From Catguin's Playground

the color is just so good

and so is my camera lol

From Catguin's Playground

cutest fish there

From Catguin's Playground

look like candy lol

From Catguin's Playground

big cheek dude...

From Catguin's Playground

i know its pretty common, but i still wanna kill ur bandwidth here

From Catguin's Playground

on our way back, someone tried to kill himself in an accident

Very Heavy Post - 2

2008-09-30T02:56:00.001-07:00

It is for the Leadership IMMERSION organized by soft skill

the trainer is superb....I have never enjoyed myself so much b4 in a training

and i realise everyone hated DSA as much as I do.

And Darren was there too, But i have never recerive so much call b4. Seems like people like to call when u are not available

From Catguin's Playground

this is some other ream. We were required to create a team with name, cheer, mission and some weird names for ourself. I got cute cynthia

From Catguin's Playground

This team THEME is time keeper, and somehow, it was fun

From Catguin's Playground

This is our team's logo. We are the DISCIPLINARIES. So we made it up with angels and devil. We can be nicer if u are nice, but we can be 5x rougher if u are rough on us. I was the team angel and darren was the team's devil LOL.... I think i am an angel on the outside, deep down, i am worst than devil himself LOL

From Catguin's Playground

our team leader

From Catguin's Playground

teamates

From Catguin's Playground

his name is zamri .... looks like a chinese

From Catguin's Playground

this is when we are playing some weird animal game, that made me panic and it needs hell loads of teamwork

From Catguin's Playground

i really like this logo, i drew it lol

From Catguin's Playground

looks like 2 gangsters....

From Catguin's Playground

our entire team

From Catguin's Playground

btw, our team name is triple 3. Sounds like some wrestling thingy

From Catguin's Playground

This is darren kepo kepo give our warning letters to those who are late the next day.
And they were late by 1 minute, or less

From Catguin's Playground

they were so happy receiving the warning letter, like graduate liddat.

From Catguin's Playground

this guys was said to be the RAJA GAYA and also the most leng chai in the group of us

From Catguin's Playground

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm i kinda agree, but there are seriouslly better. Just now in this groups

From Catguin's Playground

Picture of all the fict people who attended this trainin course. Guess who hold the phone camera that made this picture so sucky?? DARREN.

From Catguin's Playground

The FAS monkeys, the one who is making all the noise in the entire training

From Catguin's Playground

i do not know why they drag me into the picture with them

A Very Heavy Post

2008-09-30T02:08:00.000-07:00

You have been warned

I have kept whatever i wanted to post since b4 the Tang Lung Festival. So heavy pictures, you have been warned 56kps users. Tho today when i log on, i saw my lan having 2gbps... I doubt it can be trusted. LOL

I will start from The M0oncake Festival

We celebrated the mooncake festival alongside with my aunts birthday. Here are some pictures of the lantern deco we did

From Catguin's Playground

And this is on he actual date

From Catguin's Playground

This is super cute, nowdays modern world lantern can do anything

From Catguin's Playground

And the following day, i found this, a pants, hanged near the lake.... I wonder is this a cost free way of drying clothes or he just stole this clothes somewhere

From Catguin's Playground

And then, my aunt office was ROBBED

This is the lock they cut off

From Catguin's Playground

Just some pictars

2008-09-19T02:54:00.002-07:00

COWS CAN READ! MALAYSIAN COWS

CAN READ!!!!!!!

Im so proud to be a malaysian

Confirm photoshop, unless she has a squirrel inside. Or someone decided to pull one of "it" longer

Photoshop blooper

Tiring day

2008-09-15T07:54:00.000-07:00

its a hectic day, very hectic day. Had 2 exams almost back to back. Feel like dying. It has just sap up all my brain juices.

and here is something i found online, people may not be able to fly freely in the air without constrictions, but people can "fly" on the ground

this ferarri monzza is designed in a way where once it reached a certain speed, it will change the shape to make it more aerodynamic, reduce friction and enable u to go faster

really look like an aircraft. Better dun let me get my hands on it ^^

Avanti Italian.Simply luxurious~

2008-09-02T08:12:00.000-07:00

Went to Avanti restaurant today for dinner. IT was my aunts bday. Its located at Sunway hotel

Here is a link u can visit http://kualalumpur.sunwayhotels.com/eat/avanti.asp

Ok, when i looked at the menu, i have no idea what is the food is, I have no idea what is it saying, all i know is... it SUPER PRICY. So i leave the ordering to my uncle

First up, mushroom soup, and its black. Just a typical size (like u get anywhere) and with a very long garlic bread with mint spread on it. And when i taste it... it is just superb. They grind the musroom to make this soup, a TRUE italian musroom soup.. And it cost RM28 ^^

Then we had pizza, share, another true pizza. On it is scallop, size of 50 cent, prawn (with head on) and clams (as big as my mouse). The cheese was not too much and there is wine added when this pizza is made. RM68

At that time we were struggling with the limited space we had and are moving the cutlery away from monster boy -_-lll....

I love the services, they put crayons on the table and wax paper covering their cloths. So monster boy can happily draw on the table. And so did we. I drew many things including monster, tree, apple, lion and so on. And my aunt and uncle joined in the art gala

Ok, after finally stuffing all into my stomach (i was full edi) then came my main dish. A sea bass wrapped in foil. IT does not look that sweet, nor fancy, but it taste really really good. RM117

In total for us 3 fella, we ate about RM4++... Yah... wat i can say is, if i am a rich gal, i will eat there daily, cuz teh service is very good, they keep asking if there is any problem with the food, and if we say its abit salty, they offered to change the dish with a new one or order another dish to replace this. Even if ur 90% done with the food, they still are able to give u another dish and the one ur eating is for free..

yah, but i ain't taking such advantage, i have phobia in asking too much ever since the last visit to italianese with my frens..... that was.... EMBARESSING...

thats about it.... nothing much, monster took the life energy off me... and... yah... nothing else

wait i forgot, i quit my tuition job and am taking skating in semester break! Haha.

The power of lowyat.net

2008-09-02T02:20:00.000-07:00

I just realised i have a bunch of people who came to my blog and read the entire blog....

yah....

better not blog bout where i stay O___O or else another stalker appears XDD

oh ya, presents

2008-08-22T07:32:00.001-07:00

this is what i got for my present this year

from ivan. its a gif file, click on it to see the animation

this is what we presented in photoshop other than changing a guy into a girl

thats all i got for now ^^

Happy B-Day to me~~~

2008-08-22T07:12:00.000-07:00

Yeah, today is my bday

what happen today was basically this

12am - my pet bro wished me bday, until his sms came, i almost forgot bout it.

1am - Killed ivan

6am - woke up, decided i might as well give myself a break, i continue sleeping. (As if i am a very kuai gal that never skipped class)

7am - phone alarm rang so hard i woke up and put the phone in my closet.

10am - monster boy come into my room and played uno with me with my eyes closed, still in dreamland

10.30 am - woke up realising i am still holding the cards but monster boy is missing

11 am - jump out of bed and straight into shower, bath and rushed out for tuition

Somewhere in between - another fren smsed me hapi bday

2 pm - finished tuition and drove at 120km/hr for UTAR IDOL meeting in FICT. Was racing with the clouds as it was raining. The clounds was trailling behind me and i can see the heavy rain on my back view mirror. Each time i stop at red light, the rain hit my car, and when i PECUT, i manage to outrun it abit.

2.30 pm - used NUMEROUS shortcuts to reach utar ASAP (FRIDAY rainy season, everywhere JAM KAU KAU!) and manage to park my car and ran at highest human speed posible (for my weight, that shd be 50cm per hour -_-) and manage to reach inside utar before the rain hit me

2.45pm - Waited for Dr tan to hand in my appeal for barred exam letter. Yeah, i was barred for one of the exams.

3pm - went upstairs to realise that the meeting was over, smsed my chairperson ( I am the lazy Vice chair) and to get another wish

3.15pm - walked into the room and wished by 4 people

3.30pm - alvin was acting funny, like playing "peek ka boo" with me O_O

3.45pm - Updated on utar idol and walk down to b3

3.55pm - Blackmailed wai meng for my present, about to molest, kidnap and sell him to chao kit

4pm - mr ivan fetched some weirdoes (except the gal) to asia jaya, blackmail the guys on the way.

4.05pm - Ran 2mrws scedule with ivan and got scolded by chin hong again for hectic schedule

4.15pm - rushed to state to get some oth signature and run some documents. Realised that UTAR accountancy is recognized in ENGLAND. Wow...Soaking wet cuz it was still raining badly.

5pm - horrified with the jam in federal and went to mid valley to get away from the EXTREAMLY heavy rain

5.15pm - Manage to reach mv and walked into this mother and baby fair, looked at one educational kit that consist of 1000 flash cards that cost RM1209 (OMG!!!! if i have my own child, i whack him with rotan until he know -_- aint speding this kind of money)

6.30pm - Ivan fetched me back to utar and decided not to watch fashion night (the models not leng chai one -_-) and make our way back to utar

7pm - my birthday almost turned into my death day as i was driving at 40km per hour and this waja, in front of me did not signal that he was turning, he just suddenly brake and drift across and i have to press on my emergency brake. And my brake was not functioning due to rain again.... I quickly swirl to the left and able to regain control and continue driving. All this happened in 10 seconds. No more driving for kancil while raining

7.30pm - reached home to realise ivan just passed section 16 because of the jam

8pm - eat dinner at home while watch wah lai toi. 2 more people wished me bday via sms

9pm - played http://kuwakchai.com?REF=1816 until now

10.30pm - get ready to go mama house and sigi wished me bday too

that my bday ^^ simple

and thx for all the wished, i hope i didnt leave u out in my post. Thx ky and ht for wishing me in person, teri for calling me and turtle for remembering

Fuyioh..manyak viagra oh

2008-08-12T08:26:00.001-07:00

Most Viewed Nation News....rape -_-

2008-08-08T01:56:00.000-07:00

Mother shocked to discover girl’s sex trysts

SEREMBAN: A mother of a 14-year-old girl who was worried over her erratic behaviour was shocked to find out that her daughter had been having regular sex with her boyfriend.

The mother found out about this when she stumbled upon her Form Two daughter's diary in which the latter had written about her trysts with her boyfriend, a 17-year-old Form Five student.

She immediately lodged a police report on Wednesday, which led to the boy's arrest.
The youth, who had been bragging about his “conquests” to his schoolmates, was arrested the same day and remanded for four days.

It is understood that the girl, who lives in Taman Tasek Jaya near here, had twice attempted suicide when she learnt that her boyfriend had been saying nasty things about her.

It is learnt that the youth from Taman Megaway had told his friends that he had been having sex at least three times a week with the girl.

Police have classified the case as rape.

marketing 101

2008-07-20T02:54:00.000-07:00

"Marketing 101

"You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and say, "I'm fantastic in bed". That's Direct Marketing.

You're at a party with a bunch of friends and see a gorgeous girl. One of your friends goes up to her and pointing at you says, "He's fantastic in bed". That's Advertising.

You see a gorgeous girl at a party. You go up to her and get her telephone number. The next day you call and say, "Hi, I'm fantastic in bed". That's Telemarketing.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. You get up and straighten your tie, you walk up to her and pour her a drink. You open the door for her, pick up her bag after she drops it, offer her a ride, and then say, "By the way, I'm fantastic in bed". That's Public Relations.

You're at a party and see a gorgeous girl. She walks up to you and says, "I hear you're fantastic in bed". That's Brand Recognition.

Hari Ini Membentuk Kerajaan, Esok Turun Harga Minyak!

2008-07-15T07:55:00.000-07:00

Debat Khas: Datuk Ahmad Shahbery Cheek vs Datuk Seri Anwar Ibrahim

Tarikh: 15 Julai 2008
Tempa: Balai Tun Syed Nasir, Dewan Bahasa dan Pustaka,Kuala Lumpur
Jam: 9 malam (siaran langsung di TV9 @astro #119
Tajuk : Hari Ini Membentuk Kerajaan, Esok Turun Harga Minyak!
Anjuran: Agendadaily
Selamat berdebat kepada kedua-dua panel dan amat diharapkan supaya panelis-panelis tidak menyalahgunakan platform debat ini. Gunakanlah platform debat ini yang bakal disaksikan oleh jutaan penonton sebaiknya dengan berhujah mengenai tajuk yang telah ditetapkan. Jangan menggunakan platform ini untuk ‘mempromosikan’ ideologi politik parti masing-masing seperti yang terjadi pada debat khas terdahulu mengenai kenaikan harga petrol.

honestly, i dunno what to say about this debat. I was watching it just now with 10000% attention. Honestly, it is a VERY VERY heated debate. Honestly. And theyd o not have enough time to talk. I know that anwar keep on stressing the point about oil and fuel price, the fact that such SUDDEN increase will screw up the economy, and the other side (BN) keep on talking about anwar and the his credebility. The debate is about the fuel, but BN keep on cucuk anwar regarding his personality and such. Finally anwar answered something like this (not exact quote la) : "i am saying about the sudden increase will impact the inflation by alot, it is not that sudden increase in fuel will DECREASE the inflation, this kind of economic law, who teach one?!" and "i am talking about petronal oil and gas and not the politics, if the parliment minister are unable to differentiate this, then that will be our problem".

and loads more, wonder if there is any typed out context 2mrw.

but anwar is a very good public speaker compared to the opponent.

my 2 cents. Take it or leave it. Thank you

ok....up level

2008-07-13T03:32:00.000-07:00

i just increased my hectic-ness and my tiredness to another level. In addition to working and taking care of baby, i have increased to becoming a committee member

yes i have sworn off this job once, but i miss the rush and the fun and the flow of becoming a management/committee. Or what people label as ke po chi.... my dad just screwed me for this. He said :" i wud expect an average of 3.9 from u. To me a 3.0 is fail....."

i feel to tired, my chest is pounding, my brain is getting more and more tired each day, i cant sleep at night and i cant wake up in the morning. What i am studying i cud not remember, what i did i cud not remember, i remember the list of stuff i need to do, i wish that 1 day has 48 hours, i am beginning to even lose focus when i am driving, I am tired to taking care of an 19 year old idiot (god damn it mature up la!), i almost left my baby at the park last week, i forgot people's name (normal), i forget what the movie i have watched and not, i forget to even eat -_-lll. My health is deteorrating, forgot to eat medic -_- (this is bad) , girl's monthly thing also screwed up edi (1st in 6 years).

and honestly, when all the above happened, i didn't know i was under stress, until one fren of mine pointed out that i am too tired.

i feel so emo, there is so much problem around me, i wonder is it that i fail to notice or i just ignored it. Family expect too much from me, i deprive in care and love, sien, i turn myself oblivious to the problem i had deep down inside. And I wonder is it that i close myself and refuse to let anyone know or i dun have anyone to talk to. Maybe now the problems i kept locket start to catch up with me. I guess the cycle repeats again, my emo will blow up, sit and drown myself, then stand up and face the world again...

I wish i just die. I looked at others and i wonder why are they so lucky.

i miss sui may...

Suprise suprise

2008-07-06T08:23:00.001-07:00

Well, like is suprising, i never know alvin can play the guitar, and he is damn good at it >_< *drool*

na, alvin ur picture as requested.

I didnt know KY likes sodomizing ppl with lolipop

and tevvy has gone nuts after going KTAR

but the fact that most of my male frens are gay is still an unshoking truth

oh ya.... i didnt know KY had this habit of eating tiramisu with vineger as gravy.

I have changed.....

2008-06-14T09:45:00.000-07:00

Yes, i have changed, and i realise that today when i was out having dinner with chua at 1U. Have you ever heard of a big big FANCY restaurant charging u when u ask for refill (for the pot of chinese tea you ordered), and will charge you per SERVING of rice and each glass of plain water u ask from them? Heck they even charged extra RM0.50 for a glass of PURE ICE!

It is not their kedekut-ness that blew my fuse, altho it annoyed me a little, but their large portion of food and tastiness kinda make it up for the kedelutness. However, this is where the problem starts.

chua : i wan to ask u, the pot of chinese tea, can we 3 share?
waiter : yes can share
chua : i mean can refill right? no cost added?
waiter : yes, refill
chua : ok....

proceed to stay there for few hours while crapping about politics and economy and GAYS. (Chua started with the gay topic, dun ask me, yes u were mentioned CHong)

When the bill come, i was shocked to see 3 digits! Based on our calculation, it should not be even near it! I then checked the bill and noticed they charged us 3 time for the chinese tea. I ask them why and this is what happen

volcano : Why are you charging us X3 for the tea? We only take one pot and you allowed us to share. *still calm*

waiter 2 : Cuz the tea you can only refill it twice (the size of the stupid teapot is as big as my phone, k810i -_-)

volcano : but you did not mention that we can only refill twice, and i asked the waiter that if there is extra chrges if we refill and she said no. *calm calm*

waiter 2 : But you can only refill twice8

volcano : Can you ask the girl to come over here to explain? *chanting the word calm calm in my head*

waiter 2 : *walks away and ask the girl to come but the girl RAN away ans REFUSED to come*

volcano : how?

waiter 2 : you can only refill twice....

LAVA : Ok, thats enough, its either call the girl over here to explain or call your manager. The girl told us that there is no extra charge and you are charging us nonssensically. She is either not well trained or does not understand english, however, it is your company's problem and it is not to be blamed at me. She did not say that she does not understand english and she did nothing to rectify the problem, in addition to tthat, she is the order taker, your company allows people who does not understand english to take orders? If she did nothing wrong then why is she running away and hiding at that corner? Your company did not even bother to put it down in the menu that is is only refillable twice. Such a large company and you expect me to believe that they will charge such small petty expenses?
waiter 2 : ok, i change and make it X2 only

Lava : This is still WRONG! *before she can start f*cking her, chua spoke up*

chua : nvm la..........

volcano : fine..........

I realise that my temper has really gone up and i am able to kill people instantly as a customer, i sometimes think that what i did is not right, but then again, i am only standing at the point where i am correct, i am not being difficult. I mean, the restaurant is completely trying to cheat us! The food are priced at a lower price but beverage are being priced per serving. MEaning if u ever order anything like plain water, u better keep and not drink that water. And rice too, per serving means that they will scoop you the rice from a bigger bowl (thai food bowl) and EACH SCOOP, i am being CHARGED at......

Best is, if u meantion to me that you are charging it that way, i wud understand, but it is not mentioned in both menu and when we ask the waiter, so this is a rip off. However, the food is quite nice and with large serving. Recommend for food, however, bring your own water bottle.

Anyway, back to the point, i talked to Chua and suddenly it snapped at me, i wun kill people if this was a year ago. I have changed into a much more difficult customer, a true female customer.

You are warned....the following context will infect you with phobia.of.miow's.kancil

Next, i have changed into being more grudge holding. Today when i was on my way home, there was a MALAY man in a myvi glaring at me like he wanted to eat me alive, and i did nothing wrong. The proton behind myvi suddenly blinked it's double signal and i was on the right of the proton, i wanted to turn left, hence i need to cut infront of the proton and then slot behind the myvi. But the myvi glared at me.....like wanted to bash me up, and my car was not even in front of his.........

and then..... my eyes blinked....

he was going straight, i slot my car beind his, i was on a curve getting ready to turn left. I stepped on my accelerator, speed up till 60km, went slightly in front of the myvi (that is on my right) , and then swirl my car to the right, causing him to avoide me like HELL and swirl to the right too, almost hitting the car on HIS right. In split seconds after i swirl right, i turned near to 45' to the left, i drifted abit, but i went off honking and laughing at him.

now that i am writing this, i feel bad.....

You can ignore the following post, was just haing some weird emo/pms/gay/whatever issue. You have been warned, alien has abducted miow and it will not sound like her.

Few days ago a close fren of mine FINALLY confessed that he was lying in one of his blog post. Altho i have predicted this long ago, i am glad that he admitted it. And i was touched that he thought i will be angry at him for being stupid, heck, where am i to find the heart to be angry at him after he spoke such words? Anyhow, he was not being stupid, it is normal, when he confessed, i was not angry, i was WORRIED SICK (ended up talking to ivan bout it till wee hours in the night >_<>Altho i have warned him, and too know that he is not such a suicidal person, it stills worries me how his heart will be crushed and smased into microns soon. Sure hope this time he will TELL ME and not keep in his heart and tell me after the incident is over by 3 years. Altho i am sure he has other people to talk to and may not tell me such private stuff, but ............... i dunno..... nvm...

Now i fell scared...

Nowdays i treasure friends so much, not that i dun treasue them before, but i seems to talk much more carefully than last time. I was deeply sadden that one of my fren is now turning into a dota TRASH-TALKER. Aih.......................................

Do you have the answer for this?

What is this feeling called? When you care about someone so much, you care about what they think, you are afraid to show how much they meant to you just in case you frighten them away, you worry for his well being, physically, mentally, and you know that the person is cared by many that you will not get a turn to understand and care for him, and most importantly, your not romantically involved with him and dont have the intention to....

Moving on........

Ivan lost his wallet containing RM600 CASH inside, and 52% of the cash belongs to me. Foundation student dun even have the heart to return his ID, IC and licence. Stupid kids.

Been having as usual the hectic imetable, everyday 8am till 12pm or 2pm non stop. 6 hours of class. Thursday class is from 8amtill 6pm with only 30 minutes break in between.

Teaching tuition, realising how the newer generation is, and also a look back on how bad i used to behave last time and how naive i was.

Realised that i can solve form mathematic paper in 15 minutes, 40 questions. 100% Correct.

Realised that i seriouslly am very afraid of snakes......jun long's fault. -_- I found a picture of me when i was young holding a 6 foot long phyton. Today i was at the pets wonderland and i really wanted to play with the hamsters but they changed the layout and i am FORCED to pass by cages of snakes before ic an reach my hamppies.....i closed my eyes and walked with a guide pulling me. And i was shevering... thinking a snake may attack my leg anytime.

Realise that i am fatter, need to start to starve myself...

Realise for once i got one of the highest for my impromptu speech..............

Realise that I actually have the capability of being a chairperson with very good interview session but because of one member int he committee said to have encounter the way i organize something, she said i am not suitable. Just because of something like that. Based on one opinion they just canceled me off and opt for someone else. I guess i cant complain, i join the club so i can get the cert, i dun really care about the club nor know about it. Tho i am sure being inside i am able to create many events. Since i am being fired, then forget bout the events lor..... Continue to have alot of phantom member lor.... continue to be dead lor... XDXD so lanci, as if the world revolves around me XDXD jkjk

Realised that i am very very jealous of alvin............... cuz he is tall...

Realised that i am very old, people start to call me auntie..............

thats about it kua...........

FES tival

2008-05-29T08:42:00.001-07:00

ya, FES tival, remind me wbout MY carnival...sigh....sadsad

anyway, just helping to promo, i aint going

WTF

2008-05-21T07:59:00.000-07:00

IT made my heart drop, shivering, scared, shocked

then......... when i press the button "examination final result" this comes out

WHAT THE FUCK!@@@@@#!@$^))_%$#!@

my toe nail...my toe nail T_T i will miss u

2008-04-27T10:45:00.001-07:00

daddy say my toe nail will fall off....T_T *Cries*

AS

2008-04-27T01:36:00.000-07:00

aih, i called my fren and she told me that this is her last sem in utar. I was SHOCKED. Very very shocked. Well, there goes my last female fren in utar (whom i ish close to la) I asked her what she want to do, i can sense her emotions of confusion. I pitied her. IF she did well in first sem, she will be fine

then some random idea went thru my mind, i looked up management and designing course and they are only available in certain colleges and it is so darn expensive! Teri said that tar offered designing and i was rather happy to hear that. When i consult my parent and aunt, they screw m up so badly i hardy recognise myslf. Or shd i say, they didnt screw me, they just screwed up my intention and ideas. I once had really gave up on AS months ago. I was very tired of constand working and studying and workng and studying and responsibilities i have to handle.

I have to work, go gym at least 3 times a week (back then la, not i forgot about gym liow -_- but if i dun go anymore, my aunt will kill me soon) then study maths ( i hate maths) and in addition to that, i have to take care of the new baby in the house.

Taking care of the baby almost replaced dota for me. OF course i did not made him dress or look like a "chung" or try to teach him how to spin like a top, but he cheers up my day. But...BUT i now have even less time to study...

When i finaly got my head to look at the notes, its already 11pm and i have a test 2mrw at 9am. My head is heavy cuz i woke up at 7am.

I consulted my aunt and she totally bash me up left and right on how i shd be resposible and not waste time and how i shd stick to what i have choosen.

okay.................................one mor ereason to stay in AS, dun get killed by aunt

Anyway, later the evening i went to teri's house to pick up my exam paper, which really is dreadful. Not her, i mean my marks. My marks were dreadful. Her mum asked me about wheater am i transferring to nursing. And it hit me, nursing.....something my aunt support, something i can try....but....i hate bio -_-. Man i am picky XD Then teri's mum seem very very concern with teri's studies and even suppport her to stop studying. She too added that whatever she wants, she can do it. Its up to her. Then, 5 second later, a car went paSS and knock on my side window. My mum hon me to end the chat and get into the car.

Whn i get into the car, i told my mum what i think i want to do and she said, forget it. Continue AS, u wun earn enough to surive if u do fashion/designing/managemen/nursing.

Now i am so emo......................

Well, one thing is for sure, will be in AS for at leats another 2 sem. I know that chances are, i will be pushed until i complete AS by my full forced family. Good or bad? Dunno, i can only tell after i get a job. Then i know.

i found out ur name

2008-04-25T06:33:00.000-07:00

thanks to SuN_RaE198 ^^

denish a/l e#san

Lowyat forum

2008-04-23T04:25:00.001-07:00

just realise i am famous for fuck utar in lowyat -_-

XDXD

i wrote about dota in my essay today

google it

2008-04-21T07:14:00.000-07:00

just realised that when i type "fuck utar" (without ") in the google search engine, my blog comes out top

try it if dun believe

Vulger post. Damn vulger post. Viewers advised

2008-04-21T02:58:00.000-07:00

Fuck utar. I am damn fucked up by utar. They sometimes really really sucks! Or shall i say DSA INDIANS! THE FUCKING INDIANS IN DSA WHO DO NOT CARE a bitch about their fucking lifeless JOB! I bet they sit and think who to screw new at the bar at night with her tight tube with all her DAMN FATS STICKING OUT from EVERY PART OF HER BODY!

Next is this morther fucker Mr Denish a/l fucker (when i know his name i SURE DAMN WILL post up his full name). He LIED!!!! He made me lose RM300 just from his FUCKING LIES AND THEN USE HIS DAMN TAI CHI AND SHOVE TO FINANCE DEPARTMENT.

Anyone with a NORMAL BRAIN will know that 4 days is not enough to recruit people to join such a big singapore tour! U fucked up idiots say the dateline is 23rd april but payment must be made by 11th april. Who the fuck will do that? Other than me who had just abit more trust in you ASSHOLES. Which i FUCKING FUCK REGRET!

In addition to that, you FUCKERS do not even BOTHER to at least LET US KNOW about the cancelation. Your fucked up brain is just damn fucking useless!!! We all here was so fucking hell hyped up about the trip and you tell us that it is cancled, nonchantly. Like nothing happened! And u kept you damn phone on and listening to song while on the office phone doing seriouslly privates calls and do not even FUCKING CARES ABOUT STUDENT. YOU CALL URSELF STUDENT AFFAIRS?!

This is wrong, i know i am wrong if i wish you Mr Denish all the best and hope that you will be RE-infected with broncoil cancer/infection/i dun care what and hope this time it is just large enough to give you a SMALL leeway of air. I will make sure i visit you daily to see how much you suffered as you are NOT worth having a space in HELL. NOT EVEN IN HELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Assholes. Seriouslly guys, if you have the money, stay away from utar! STAY AWAY! Unless you are another fucker who is damn willing to join those fuckers. I regret badly. I should have stayed one more year and work my ass off to go for another college or university.

But then, i am a person who WILL by all mean take REVENGE.

p/s : i just found a bag being placed at the stairway, when i returned to DSA for lost and found, the people tell me that the poor girl was crying for it. The bag looked nice >_<>_
I didnt even take the vouchers inside XDXDDDDDDDD

SCREW DSA FUCK DSA!!!!!

2008-04-21T00:34:00.000-07:00

I WISH THAT U NOT ONLY GET A BRONKOIL INFECTION, BUT I WISH THAT U GET ONE BIG TUMOR STUCK IN THE BRONKOIL BUT YET NOT ENOUGH TO STOP U FROM BREATHING! I WANT YOU, U DAMN FUCKING ASSHOLE TO TASTE LIFE THAT IS WORST THAN DEATH!!!!!

AND U FUCKING DESEARVE IT!

money money money

2008-04-17T01:23:00.000-07:00

when we talk abotu money, everyone needs it. No matter how much money u have, u somehow find that it is never enough. Money is a powerful force that can change a person character, behavior and even principles. We can kill for money, i would too if someone is willing to hire me, we also strive and work our ass like donkeys and kissing monkey's asses. And in everyone's mind, we all want to know how the hell to get rich quick!

and i found a solution today wahahahahahahahaha

instantly, i have turned myself into a multi millionaire. Listen, is MULTIMILLIONAIRE. No, not monopoly or fake money, with REAL money.

Upon the fact my maid is returning indonesia, i have to change cash for her, and i realise that for rm0.03, i can get 100 rupiah!

and now, i have 26 MILLION DOLLAR CASH WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am damn rich now wei!!!
XDXD

From this i found a new solution, whenever i am frustrated or sad about money, or when i really really am DAMN tired of working CONSTANTLY, i can always walk to a money changer and ask : boss! tukar 1 juta ruppiah!

And i can taste the feel of being a millionaire.

and when i change it back to ringgit malaysia, i am a normal kid again. Not so bad, i wonder why those millionaire when they go bankrupt and have only few hundred bucks are so sad and even commit suicide.

Maybe they can try my way and i might just be able to save LIFES!!!!!

uh................siow liow

2008-04-03T09:52:00.000-07:00

BARNEY SONGS ARE NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Been listening to too much barney edi @_@

wtf

2008-03-22T07:21:00.000-07:00

181 words

Speed test

u wana try?

2008-03-22T06:32:00.001-07:00

49 words

Speedtest

wanna try?

batman O_O

2008-03-21T09:32:00.000-07:00

Customer: "May I know your name?.."
Ans: "Batman..."
Customer: "What is your name?!"
Ans: "My name is Bat-man..."
Customer: "Can you please spell out your name?"
Ans: "B-A-T-M-A-N"
Customer: "Are you trying to be funny?!. What is your surname?.."
Ans: "Supar-man..."
Customer: "I want to speak with your manager...NOW"

yay ^2

2008-03-21T09:28:00.001-07:00

Late night, Abdullah Badawi went out of Sri Perdana to buy some supper for Jean. After getting the supper, before he reach manage to call his driver, a robber point the gun at him, “Give me all your money”.

Abdullah Badawi very angry, he ask the robber, “What are you doing, I am Abdullah Badawi, Malaysia Prime Minsiter!”.

The robber answer, “Well…....give me back my own money.”.

yay

2008-03-21T09:26:00.001-07:00

Copy from http://www.malaysiakini.com/news/79436

(1) Barisan has announced that its new national symbol is the Condom, because it accurately reflects the government stance. A condom allows for inflation, halts production, destroys the next generation, protects a bunch of pricks and gives us a sense of security while we're actually being screwed!

(2) Pak Lah and Samy Vellu were in a helicopter looking down Kuala Lumpur. Pak Lah said, "Samy, if I throw two RM100 notes down, two people will be happy."

Not wanting to be outdone, Samy said, "If I throw 200 RM1 notes, 200 people will be happy."

The pilot heard the conversation and said, "If I throw the two of you down, 27 million Malaysians will be happy."

(3) Three guys were arguing as to what race Adam and Eve were. The Malay guy said they must be Malay as they are so good looking. The Chinese guy said that they must be Chinese as they are so calm even with a snake.

The Indian guy said that they must be Malaysian-Indian as they have no shelter, no clothes, no money, share one apple, advised by a snake who told them that they are living in paradise!

(4) Pak Lah, Najib, Shahrizat and Anwar were sitting in a KTM train heading up to Penang for campaigning. Near Ipoh, the train goes through a tunnel and it gets completely dark.

Suddenly there is a kissing sound and then a slap!

The train comes out of the tunnel. Shahrizat and Pak Lah are sitting there looking perplexed.

Najib is bent over holding his face, which is red from an apparent slap.

All of them remain diplomatic and nobody says anything.

Pak Lah is thinking: "These guys are all crazy after Shahrizat. Najib must have tried to kiss her in the tunnel. Very proper that she slapped him."

Shahrizat is thinking: "Najib must have moved to kiss me, but kissed Pak Lah instead and got slapped."

Najib is thinking: "Damn it, Pak Lah must have tried to kiss Shahrizat, she thought it was me and slapped me instead."

Anwar is thinking: "If this train goes through another tunnel, I could make another kissing sound and slap Najib again."

Another bullshit

2008-03-20T08:15:00.000-07:00

Well, today so far i have posted 3 post, not bad le for a person who didnt post for so long?

ok, isimply could not resist to post this as i realise some m*nkeys "cakap tak serupa bikin". I thought rally and protest are not the malaysian style? People are arrested by ISA or others when rally is made no matter u have a point or not? I guess not XDXD

Look at the recent reaction of people going against the NEP being demolish in penang. There is a catch to it

1) why does many people need the nep when u are richer than most people there? Plus, malay are no longer the poorest nor the least population of people in the country, so its really nor fair to hog at that special preveliges to you m*nkeys and time to let the country develop, and stop wasting money

2) sabah minister said : Sabah Progressive Party president Datuk Yong Teck Lee is puzzled why there is so much fuss over the New Economic Policy when it has already been superseded by the National Development Policy.

He said the DAP-led Penang government “so-called cancellation of the NEP” was completely redundant because it no longer existed and it was disappointing that Penang Umno was still harping on the NEP like it was a valid document. (source : http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2008/3/16/election2008/20080316145755&sec=election2008) yah i got it from the star itself

so............syabas bn in sabah. Other people are buzy with the development towards vision 2020, the old bn still hog on to the last document as if it was valid.

anyhow, here are some footage

quote from http://trendylifestyle.blogspot.com/2008/03/umno-rally-in-penang.html :

So, is this monkey leader of this (without permit) public demonstration will be detain by ISA? like the Hindraf or BERSIH? Well! at least give them some slap for causing me and hundreds of working peoples losing a couple of their precious working hour and few ringgit of fuel by stuck in traffic cause by his "MERELY" 500 peoples of rally? *of funny part i heard, you even get paid of RM80 by joining them*. Man you guys should be ashame of yourself and many many many of my Malays friends is ashame by your act, your party ruin everything.

something to cheer up the mood

2008-03-19T23:31:00.000-07:00

I don't need a CAR, but I want a BMW
I don't need a CONDO,
but I want a BUNGALOW
I don't need you to have CASH but I want you to own a BANK
I don't need you to have a CAREER but I want you to be a BOSS

Most of you would have heard of the Singapore 5C's! :
Car,
Condo,
Credit Card(Gold),
Cash and
Career

Heard of the 5B's?
B - BMW
B - Body
B - Brain
B - Billionaire
B - Bungalow

And, and addition with the 5K's
Kiasu (scared of losing)
Kiasee (scared of dying)
Kiabor (scared of wife)
Kiaboh (scared of having nothing)
Kiachenghu (scared of government)

We've been reading about the 5C's! and 5K's for Singaporeans, now comes the 5 Numerals and Malaysia's equivalent...

Singapore's "practice" for Simple Living :
1 - One Wife
2 - Two Children
3 - Three Bedroom Condo
4 - Four Wheels
5 - Five Figure Salary

Malaysia's Malays "practice" to Simple Living:
5 - Five Children
4 - Four Wives
3 - Three Figure Salary
2 - Two Wheels
1 - One-Storey Link House

one more reason why foreign investors run away, seriouslly, i really wonder how they survive? I personally seen a baby from their race and i see that the baby is just so pityful, after a bllod check the baby has worst health than i have! omg! and its all due to malnutricion

GE 2008

2008-03-19T22:55:00.000-07:00

yah, everyone so hyped up bout this new goverment thing but i aint saying anything yet, that is because i was updating myself with source from malaysia today and other related newspapers and blogs, honestly, i have never read so many blogs and news in my entire life. The news updates every hour and every hour there is a few new LONG winded post. But i know at least this source is not cencored by anyone ^^

i am talking about http://www.malaysia-today.net/2008/ They have simply the best insite bout goverment and updated news.

I realise that many people are unsure if the opposition will give us a good state and good quality ruling. But one thing is for sure, they said this "we must perfrom for the people and deliver them the best as if they can vote you up as state goverment, they can easily vote you down as well". Not direct quote but roughly the same la.

At least one thin i am for sure, that is in teh nature of chinese people, they are more coutious and know where they stand. They know that if i can win now, i can easily lose next time as their foundation and supporters are not absolute. At least i believe they will try their best. Corruption will happen, its EVERYWHERE, its bullshit to say that it never happen, but its in our nature, if u do something for someone, u want something back right? Think about it, as a student, u will not only do favor 100% and not askign anything back.

The only difference is that will they corrupt so much that it is so darn obvious or will they take only a small part of it?

What the opposition is doing now is to balance out the country. Everybody warned of MAy 13, if we were to tumble the bn party, but this is a modern world, that happening is not so much likely, tho not impossible. Oppositions are slowly eating up the old goverment, that i am quite sure. Unless the opposition are the one who is making us more miserable.

Balancing out the country will do the best, specially when i comes to education, to go oversea you need to be a malay, not malaysia, and that is just plain wrong. If you need to ask why, i will suggest you google and read about human rights. We have kept quiet about this but to us, its fine, it will shape us into a better person, we wun take for granted on what we have, as we work hard to achieve what we have, like utar, most of us a poor student and we dont spend our money relentlessly, try comparing with taylor or inti student where people will cry and fight with their parent just to get the latest iphone where we would think twice if it is worth it to buy an ipod shuffle.

And we have better value for our parent than those students.

BAck to the goverment

I need to add another suggestive remark, i know that most universities oversea do not even want to accept students who had 21 A in spm or more or less. Cuz they know, they are not with quality, just that they are lucky when they were born.

If the goverment continue to give extra chances to people who are born lucky, with no quality, this country will go backwards. Really backwards. No one will ever trust our country in producing speciallist or even normal workers. Foreign invester will not want to invest in our country, heck how would u like to run business with workers who slack off and with attitude of "tidak apa" ? They are not born that way, they are bwing tought to be lazy and without quality. Cuz they are seriouslly spoon fed.

Reducing tolls is one good ways to win the people's heart. If tolls are risen as well as our salary, there will be inflation where people are willing to spend more. It cuz be a serious disaster. Worst is now we are experiencing stagflation, meaning prices still goes up even if we are not buying. It is an economist nighmare.

Point is, i believe in the opposition for now because they have not won, they are just winning, they are yet to be the new goverment, and they will still do their best to win people's heart. By reducing tolls and whatever, if you think they are really 100% working just to ensure the country is developing, without any means for themself, your seriouslly wrong. Even usa or other countries who is fully developed will not have such perfect leader.

Come on, before the election, everything is fine. Bn promise so many things, allow so many things, no saman and etc. Only fools will go against people who is bound to vote within a short period. Sure lose la..... tho never expect so much oni.

And the whole hak istimewa thing, good thing it has been reviewed and tried to be canceled, as it no longer serve anypurpose. They should help the poor, no matter they are indian malay or kadazan, not just because of the race. This they should learn from sabah. The BN there is better

and one good turning point is now BN cannot pass any legislation on their own. And this hence, slows down the fact of rising fuel cost and so on. If you wanna compare,

usa : they have very cheep fuel, they can afford to use oil guzzlers if they want to. I asked my dear fren from usa, and u wun believe their petrol price is. 10 bucks can get u going for a long long journey

thailand : their petrol price is termendous! but they have no tolls.

But there is no point comparing, we earn diffrent salary, we have diff goverment, our life quality is different, heck! IF other countries give birth to so many kids they have to pay for them or opt for adoption, not like us. You can screw all you like and someone will pay for your consenquences. No worries! tak apa punya....

other countries give our condam for free, and with 1 cent u can get a handfull of them from student clinique. Not like us, pay around RM10+ to get just 12 packed of it. So people tend to screw without protection.

I aint gonna comment on anything else other than educationa nd petrol prices cuz this are the 2 things that directly involves me, anything else, i may not be too sure about it, so better survay and keep my mouth shut first.

and i am so gonna migrate, i have 4 years to plan. Just in case anything happens when opposition really do get the goverment *whink*

Quiizy

2008-03-19T22:42:00.000-07:00

you wanna try this? I hardly think that i am an inportant part of my circle of my friends, heck, whoknows? Yah, calm, try owning my hero in dota and i ain't calm no more XDXD

u guys can give it a try, not much fun for a personality quiz but a fun flash to play with XDXD

http://vn247.net/flash/Color-and-Me.swf

quote for the day

2008-03-06T01:11:00.000-08:00

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in. =)

and...

A man had "I LOVE YOU" tattooed on his dick. He went home and proudly showed his wife. "There you go again, trying to put words into my mouth", she said.

yah......................

A twisted world

2008-03-06T00:50:00.000-08:00

If you want to be famous, be gay. American idol season 7 danny noriega, (yes! i actually remembers his name, see! proves to be famous, be gay) is one heck of a person. And i am seriosully suprissed why he is still in the competition and why the guys have not beat him up to death yet -_- i tot guys are the one who cannot stand gay gay ness?

He can also potrait a person in anime where u seriouslly cannot diffrentiate if the person is a he or she. Mostly in anime like ayashi no ceres or shakugan no shana. yeah... maybe he will suceed in japan. I feel like really ripping his pants off to check if he is a girl. Cuz.... he is so much more petite and ladylike than anyone i can find in utar. Seriouslly........

try and have a look in his dances, but beware, u have been warn of gayness...

danny-CHAN!

really need to run away or get away.....

ok, moving on.........................*holding a pack of vomit*

i was searching for the old old akazukin cha cha manga yesternight cuz i was bored.
And i have no idea that there is a hentai anime named akazukin too...... dumb little me, who DO NOT KNOW HOW TO READ CHINESE (curse me!!!!!), i clicked download and yes, my pc has been infected by virus and many many hentai pics and etc. I didn't know my pc was infected until my glorious wallpaper turned into a disgusting tv clip where fat granny being raped by a man....... with tiny tiny.uh... ehem.... yah.... i wonder why he didnt suffercate......down there.... okay...... i realise i was (again) 20 years old and i resist screaming my heads off and crying to my mummy..... which is 12 km away(subang to pj).... Spend nearly 3 hours trying to clear them...nightmare....

last but the best *holding yet another big big bucket of puke*

seriouslly!!!! u gotta see this!!!! its my new ringtone!!!!! open ur speaker on max!!!!!!!!!!

Elections bla bla bla

Tribute : Amitabah / Halleluyah

2008-02-19T07:46:00.000-08:00

Well, i dont know if lydia will take amitabah or halleluyah, but i put both instead. Tribute paid in forever rememberence of Lydia sum. I have been watching her movie since i was a baby/child until now. I cant seem to find "living with lydia" torrent tho. Who can locate it please send it to me!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *hug hug*

What used to be a very beautiful chubby entertainer

'

Was fighting cancer so profusely, and became this

It hurt my heart seeing her so skinny, and i can just feel the pain she been thru. Reminds me of my own grandma when she was sick. Same, her weight drop just like that. So thin. So sad. So painful. May everything go well for her, she has left the pool of pain and reached the light of the tunnel.

A) May your family be blessed as you return to the hand of thy loving jesus. Look down upon heaven with god.
B) Amitabah.. May you reborn again as a happy fruit and as a happy person in a rich family.

Mixed mixed mixed into rojak-chan~~!

2008-02-18T06:30:00.000-08:00

Okay.... really mixed emo now, as chinese new year, valentine and etc has passed, many things fly through my brain and was about to jammed it up like federal highway.

There is one where i realise i could detact who bloked me on msn before, not that u on msn anymore, but the thought of people doing this to you hurts, yes it does, but then the list of people i saw, well, i have expected that they will block or delete me. Why do peopel even design such website and such function? Heck, of course some consist those whom i do not recognise le. No matter what, it does send you pondering why people blocked you and most people will demand the reason. So was i.

Then i took a deep breath

I realise what you do not know, will not hurt you. They have their reason to delete you, they have their reason to block you. Maybe i was just too anoyying? And i will not doubt the reason is because i was not online for a long time. XD Hence, well, i am as usual again

I watch the show, maiden's vow. I realise its terrible for 2 people who loved each other SO dearly, but not able to be with each other. I can imagine being the good guy sitting and watching as my lover walk into the room with my lover's husband, ready to "tong fong" ('enjoy' their wedding night). I can imagine her husband's grubby hands unpluck her buttons, one by one and the shadow envisioned at the curtain. Man my heart was in flame.

Chinese new year, not really fun, acceptable, was scolded *bleh* so i was worried and facing anxiety. I was scared and angry and i dunno what else more la

LINEAR ALGEBRA QUIZ. man, this is the highlight of the day AGAIN. I am the IDIOT who sit for every single class, pays attention to the class, write down notes, but the person (whom i had to help complete his BLOODY FU*KING notes and teach him what he missed when he was fast ASLEEP IN THE FRONT ROW, IN FROM OF THE LECTURER) happen to be able to score every single question in the quiz. Man, was i screwed up then

I took another deep breth, few stones kicked and few punches at whoever i can find

i finally calm down.

Valentine, i was spending it with the Jed emperor, until 5am, romantic le? Yah, end up next day unable to attand lecture (not that i go anyway) But the valentine seem so romantic amoung the HOMOSEXUAL dark-skinned poeple whom i spotted at subang parade. Not only they held hand, they say on each other's lap.

Dota, yah, i realise how fun is the new hero before they balanced him out. Then i learned that being invisible is quite amusing too. Of course, Ai is stupider than Ai +.

I just bath my cute twin cousin. Yah, i always took care of them and i fed them and whatever not. I bath them few days ago so that we can go out for dinner (and was in a hurry too) Then in the car, i realised that they were in secondary one. Not so baby anymore. And again, i am old.

Driving is just so FU*KED UP!!!!!! If i do not leave subang by 6 am, i will be cought in the massive jam and unable to reach utar for a parking slot, lets not say in front of utar. I am lucky if there is a place for me to DOUBLE PARK.

I was stuck in a jam that took me 1 hour to go thru a what will usually be 7 minute long road. YES! i HATE that bloody incident that cause me to jam. It was 12AM IN THE MIDNIGHT. I was tired and worried, and i later realised it was because some people think it is advisable to jammed up the FEDERAL HIGHWAY so 'some' people will be able to sleep well. I ponder at the irony of people, come on, show me some guts!

The whole Love visit or whatever u call it for prisoners to ENJOY SEX with their wifes. Please, if they are so desperate for sex, and end up raping their cell mate, then SO BE IT! The reason your in jail is because you committed a crime and you must be hell pay for it! If you rape a girl and your in jail, imagine the horror the girl feels (if she has EVER gotten pass the trauma of being raped) to know that not only the man who raped her is being punished, but he is enjoying sex in his cell. He does not need to work, live, and can commit crime, and now, enjoy sex!!!! Yes, i am gonna say it loudly, THIS IS INSANE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I really wonder what is going to happen next. Anyhow, it is not like the criminals were FORCED to commit crime, is because they VOLUNTEER IT.

Plase, if you say u cannot control the desire after watching 7 hours of porn and saw a very innocent and cute 6 year old, go masterbate and jack that damn thing off. Break it if necessary, they pain u go thru has nothing to do with the child. Pity them!

Pity criminals? Ah FU*K! Who pitied those being raped? It is frightening enough just to be "almost raped". Let alone it being true. How many peopel being raped and not acknowledge? Only 2 were acknowledge. And they share certain resemblence that most people will recognise.

Anime!!!!!! Rozen maiden, shikoku no shana and etc etc etc. Specially exel saga. Well, enough to make my day (tho i swear off anime) but i had nothing to do. So i could use some good laugh ^^

SOA test.............. yah.... this i wanna keep in mind. Too many names that include my coursemate, whom i admire and sometime really really HATE. Or shall i say he is weird? Lucky i only met him during lectures. Tho he is DAMN noticable. And I sometime can't take my eyes off him, and some times he can just stand in front of me and i do not realise his existance.

No, this is not a love hate relationship that will turn into a marraige. If i ever married him, please, help me, KILL ME. I must have gone CRAAAAAAAAAAAAAZY

Work... yah, boring, maths, i am turning into a FREAKING NERD!

BAdminton, darn! i am so weak, i cant even hit my shuttlecock from one end to the other. Need to practice. Being forced to go swimming, badminton, gym, basketball, baseball, teakwondo (nah, simon is there, wun wanna bully him during sparring), kung fu dunk, ninjitsu, fuzetsu, *going crazy now* and trying to balance the hectic actuarial science. Yes, i am absolutely crazy

DEVIL WEARS PRADA!!!! I read the book and it is far more interesting than the movie. Tho it was kinda hard to read cuz the letters are small and the book is a bit thick. But i manage to scrape thru despite reading it in lecture and tutorial and lunch and so on. I forgot if i had paid Tevvy her RM12 yet?

In progress
1) reasearching how to program a virus. Hand made and tailored
2) How to hack pc
3) How to design flash webpage
4) How to drive car and withstand the temptation to KILL motorist who's daddy/grandpa bought the road
5) Getting over the fact the world is changing
6) Getting over the fact i am getting OLD!!!!!!!
7) Trying to decode what mr sammiapan is saying(failing work)

New year is here~

2008-01-01T00:49:00.000-08:00

The new year is here!
I wish u the best my dears,
Time to forget our enemies,
And start of with a smile oh so friendly.

In whatever you persue,
I wish you all the best,
If you have been working hard,
Then its time to take a rest,

Although this is the time of the year to be happy,
I am actually not that perky,
I just realise as this year comes by,
I am no longer a teen,
I am twenty....

I feel so old!!!!!!!
But when i say it out loud,
Many aunties stared at me with glares so cold,
they say "If you are old then i must in the coffin!"

I can still rememeber the time when i was act kiddy,
I can still remember the time where people used to pamper me,
Most importantly,
I can still remember the time I don't need to pay so much for a movie,
Cuz now I can only afford that price as I have no money. >_<

Lalalalalalalalalalalalalala
Time to head to the gym
To fulfil my resolutions
As the new year begins.

My 2007 have been filled with adventures,
At the same time many have matured,
I worked my ass off for assignments, money and examinations,
I bet this year it will be filled with the same "facinations" -_-
Sien sien sien sien sien Sien sien sien sien sien
Best of all, I have to endure this for another 3 years *cries*

2007-12-26T04:47:00.000-08:00

Tagged, when i read teri's blog, first thing that come to my mind is...man, this things are getting hot ... second of all (b4 i read the last sentence) PLEASE I HAPE SHE DIDNT TAG ME T_T

Rules :1. Link the person that tagged you and list the rules.

2. List 8 random facts about yourself and tag 8 people.

3. Add a black&white photo of yourself.

8 randon facts about me

i rock in photoshop. You didnt see any fatty meat right? XDXD
I have bad mood swings
I hate being without a car
My name was to confuse people that i am a christian.
I LOVE to cam whore (if i have the body which i dont T_T) in the dressing room with clothes i can never afford (3 digits!)
I can walk around spending hour and hours (top record 12 hours) in the shopping mall shopping without food nor rest (sit down)
I usually bore people and i put my phone on loud when i am asleep
I have one of the best job in the world. Sitting there doing nothing for RM6 per hour

honestly, i dunno what to put liow

Tagged by Caitlin

2007-12-25T05:48:00.000-08:00

1) Do this tag and answer all the questions in your own blog.
2) Delete question 20 and add one of your own questions instead.
3) Tag 8 other people.

Questions

1) What was your dream when you were a kid?
I wanted to be rich!!! Drive BMW XDXD or....maybe i like a handsome prince on a white horse to carry me around. So romantic! >_< 2) What was the happiest moment in your whole life?
Until now? Hmmmm........ the day i pawned Darren in DOTA.....the day i drank magarita... the day hit a FIRST BLOOD and.... many more XDXD

3) What do you wish to have right now?
I wish to have the power of teleportation or i wish to have the power to turn back time like the japanese guy from heroes. But all i wish now is to have a normal life with no problems, such as my calculus exam and also i wish that my business accounting lecturer is not MR LIM.

4) When was the last time you horse laughed?
apa itu?

5) What did you realize recently?
a dilemma...will talk about it in the next post

6) Which bad habit in you is the most unacceptable?
Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm................ go crazy when i see nice food? Or my mood swings?

7) When you are unhappy, what will you do?
Call my bfS. Or lock myself in the room and plug my ears with earphone with the volume turned to maximum, color something in FULL RED (hard) or just start to find someone (preferly male with fatty meat) and start punching him till death. (i pity the innocent guys)

8) What are you afraid of losing?
Love

9) Within 5 years, which target is the most realistic?
i know i know. I will turn into a NERD!! I will tuck in my shirt with pants button up high with belt. Then i will wear thick thick glasses (2 inch at least) with circles on it. In addition to that, i will relate every single bloody thing with maths and i will wear a tie with the work "dy/dx and intergrations are my best friends."

10) When you meet someone you like, will you hide or profess your feelings?
HIDE. But sometimes i realise it ain't too subtle -_-lll

11) List out 3 kinds of people you cannot stand.
I know someone who know this answer XDXD
1) I support people who are GAY but i HATE people who act VERY VERY femenin (applicable for guys only)
2) Thinks the world spins because of him/her
3) Very very slow and "fan" people. Very "poh mah". aih.... no work in english can be used for this
4) TOO PERSISTANT SALESPERSON (My personal fav)

12) Define loneliness.
what i am experiencing now

13) Are you satisfied with your life now?
Aih....what can you do by complaining? At least i do not need to move to kampar XDXD There is not even a MAMAK STORE there... -_-lll

14) When was the most recent time you felt touched?
when someone was so worried if i leave him alone facing the world of actuarial science.

15) Where is the most beautiful place that you have visited?
Clearwater sanctuary

16) A song that has been playing in your mind recently.
swt... i will follow you by the big big fat yellow guy -_-lll

17) If you could have a wish come true, what would it be?
I want him to live again, i want to turn back time when i was a kid again. Either one will do.

18) Do you have anything to be worried or scared about lately?
MY CALCULUS EXAM RESULT should be out soon T_T or the fact i am turning into a nerd

19) If the world is going to end, what will you do?
Spend all the money i have

20) sex?
YES! XDXD

i tag....
1) Teri
2) KLCK
3) Darren
4) Chin hong
5, 6 , 7 and 8) Jess XD

UTAR KAMPAR

2007-12-24T07:24:00.000-08:00

Well, as said i spend this sunday at KAmpar, it looked very nice, very very good enviroment, the building is very big and very hi tech. Everything looks new there. The canteen is air conditioned (well, i am quite sure this is nice as it is owned by the FICT canteen auntie and not some malay *beep*s ) I saw the lecture hall was quite big. There is a lake there. Good and very very fresh air. It is like i am in Australia's University. Beautiful scenery and nature surrounding.

but i will NEVER stay there. I cannot live without the nice shopping malls. Mid Valley, One Utama, The curve, Tesco, Courts Mega Mall (i think thats the name) and etc etc you can find here. Kampar....the best i can get is kedai runcit. -_-llll that ain't gonna satisfy me.

i was stuck in the jam for 4 hours before i could reach home. Aih, damn the road works. Dont do it during festive season MAH.

Then i passed by kellie's castle which was rumored to be hunted. But when we reached there, we see many many tourist and the sun was practically burning us up. So.... it's kinda anti climax. XDXD

BTW, this is a christmas post, so....MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!!!!!!

I feel like a DeViL

2007-12-18T07:00:00.000-08:00

I feel like a devil, or u can say split personalities. This is due to the kids, they are 2 and 1/2 years old, and 6 year old. They crawl around the class, i had to catch them, they tear the carpet, and best of all, THE 6 YEAR OLD GROUPED MY ASS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yes i mean it, it is not like he spak it like a normal kid, its grope! If you wanna know how it feel, you can start using your hand and grab a pau, and then sqeeze it. Its like a pervate grabbing your breast liddat! And yes, he is 6 years old. On top of that, he shows interest in a manga drawing book i had that shows you how to draw female body, which obviouslly naked as u need to see how the body form. Its like.....hentai to him. I can see his face turn red and grin.

HE IS ONLY 6 YEARS OLD!!!!!!!!!

and yes, i feel like a devil because at one point i had to smile and be sweet to the kids, when the crawl around i had to chase them and scold them, then in matter of seconds i have to praise them when they sat down and do their work (for 2 seconds b4 they run again). This is what you get for RM50 an hour the parents pay you.

The parents came and i will have to say "wow! they are really good, got talent! and they are cute!" when they left......... i was reciting four letter bible.

Well, christmas will be more work, as in sitting at home doing KUMON maths worksheet, then start to do some drawing and start on my intemediate calculus study. My frens are spending christmas at penang, or with boyfriend enjoying 2 back to back parties (and still say no social life) and one is flying off to america. Me? I am going to look at utar KAMPAR campus this SUNDAY! I sound like a lifeless nerd...

Too much complications

2007-12-13T22:13:00.000-08:00

Well, My calculus exam did went ok after all. It was WAY harder than the past exam. I so regret why i didnt study well during Dr Chen's days. Mr Smarty pants said that i can pass, for me, i doubt i can, tho i really tired my best. And simpson rule is going to be the rule i HATE most from now one.

Back to complications, I was actually shocked at the amount of readers to my blog, as my blog seem to be VERY empty all the time. I reached home after exam and i flop on bed and went to sleep until the next morning where i went back to work. Yeah, like teri said, no social life if u have work life.

Been walking around and i realis there is just too many christmas cheers around. I felt happier. i actually do O_O. Suprising for a person like me who didnt believe in christmas. Tho dun think i will give u any presents XDXD i myself is so pk this month.

I feel like getting (not MAKING) a child.....as in a baby. I am not looking forward to the process, but a baby is just so cute and tender and nice to take care of. Specially their naughtyness.

The moody part, i woke up by some idiotic student who called me at 2-3am in the morning and realise that klck smsed me some not very pleasent sms, came to realise, life can just be so complicated. Well, i just did what i had to do and just went back to sleep. Only to realise i could not sleep...........i started to dream about ju-on and snakes...GYAH!

Today after i read chin hong's blog, i realise we are actually of opposite kind, or shall i say, he is going thru a period where i used to, until i get tired of it and i saw light. People are selfish and that is nature. We must try to be selfish and do what u want sometime, not what u think is right. Do what makes u happy. If not, just BOOZE!

What teri said is right, u have career, u wud not hav social life, if u have social life, there is no career. But then, how long will social life be social life to you? I mean, some point later all your friend will have to be uncle and aunties and get married and take care of their own family. No matter what, money is important as no money no social life. Hence.... its how well u balance it. And may the best juggler-nut wins.

Tonight i hav a function to attend to, so sick of my own looks and figure. Getting more and more uncomfortable with myself....i might just even lead to desperation at times.

one more thing, some people just dont treat people fairly...and i really really hate you for that.

Realisation

2007-12-11T04:55:00.000-08:00

Came to realisation that a person could not be perfect after all.

What u think is right, may be wrong,
and sometimes, what u know is 100% right, but u just could not do the right thing.

Sometimes, things might not seem to be what it seems, i came to this realisation after i read some of my friends blog. If you do not know them better, misconception occur.

And misconception leads to terrible consenquences. Like losing a friend or jealosy and envy.

Cried after watching a show i could relate to this afterneen on astro. Just few drops, not much.

Came to the realisation i just am being more and more hopeless as days go by. I could not understand why i just could not get calculus. Is it me who is refusing to accept the concept of that particular subject? Or is it me being too stupid to understand the concept? Or is it me being too complicated to make sure i understand the entire concept? I wonder, why i could not just study as it is and go for the test like i used to?

I used to be able to memorize and just go for the test, i used to able to sit and study for 5 hours a day. But i could not do any of that nowdays....maybe i am in deep depresion that i dont notice it?

Is it me not used to the fact my phone no longer ringing all day anymore? Is it me not used to metting people who knows me but i do not know them? Is it just me working and putting my scedule to the fullest to hide myself from this ugly world? And after 3 months the depression is starting to show?

or certain issue leave me uncomfortable inside but i tried to run from it, resulting more sadness kept inside?

i can preech, i can give advice to people to do the right thing as "when ur unhappy, the days goes by, when ur happy, the days goes by, why not choose to be happy?"but when i tried to implement it, it just wun work.

i tried, i tried to love where i work, but i am starting to get bored of it, i tried to study, but i am bored of it, i tried so many things, there is so many things i NEED to do, but............i just do not want to do it.

mood swings....left and right

i crave for attention suddenly, but.........seems that i want to be alone..

and i come to realisation that....i need friends and i dont have much of it . I lost 2 frens due to misconception, and i thought it was ok, as they wud not want to listen anyway, ppl like this is not worth it, but then...it just kept on lingering in me no matter how much i tried to delete them. They are being happy leading their like and i am here miserable...but its my fault for being sad..

ok...i am going nuts, call tanjung durian

remedy

2007-12-04T19:53:00.000-08:00

someone please give me the best remedy for cough and fever T_T i need it so urgently T_T

and i am still torn between nursing, event management and actuarial science

Yesternight Yesternight

2007-12-01T05:23:00.000-08:00

it has been long since i last updated. Maybe i just find that it is kinda not so useful to blog? Not having blog fever lo...

the last few days has been quite idiotic. i missed a certain someone, i had dreams about him, and yeah, i really really want to met him. Then i had few student in art class which made my head turn. A standard 5 year old acting like a 6 year old. I had a student in standard 5 and one which is 6 years old. They act the same and even play with each other.

But today i tried drawing again, i find it kinda hard as i was rusty. I kinda feel guilty as i was not as good as before, i practically dont teach the kids much. Then again, i know they had fun.

Working in kumon now has been my fav pasttime, i find that i like being with kids. tho i will NEVER give birth to one. OUCH! >_<

i learned from a friend that girls have one week called the "horny week". I forgot he said it was before or after period. hmmmmmmmmmm

i learned that my heart is very flowery XD

oh yah.................................. I PAWNED DARREN IN DOTA!!!!!!!!

i am so.....addicted to dota.... and i suck in calculus, i think i will transfer to nursing le...

cries

2007-11-08T19:59:00.003-08:00

i tracked my phone and it is at east coast express highway, pahang, going to kuantan T_T *cries hardly*

I lost my phone......

2007-11-07T20:44:00.001-08:00

i lost my phone T_T i am now very very sad......

So tired!!!!

2007-10-29T07:22:00.001-07:00

I took my career aptitude test and my best selection turned out to be (top to bottom)

1) CONSTRUCTION MANAGEMENT
2) Management/Sales/Marketing
3) Public Relations/Event Planner
4) Computer PROGRAMMER / Engineer
5) Banking/ Finance / Accountancy

..............so who is willing to be my room mate in stapak?

Tight Tight schedule

2007-10-19T04:16:00.000-07:00

well, time has passed and i am getting lazy and lazier by the minute, so i doubt i am going to post the continuation of PD trip, anyway, its boring. Of course i got a cashier get scolded by her manager once. And thats all XDXD

Days are going by and each day is getting more and more hectic and more expensive. How i wish i am born rich sometimes, i kept on having weird dreams these days, some with i dreamt i was rich, some i dreamt i was poor (in reality i also poor) and best is almost everyone thinks i am a rich spoiled kid.

Well, i dun deny i may be a spoiled kid XDXD but definitely not rich. Some may just say "u could not understand how it felt if u dun even have a cent in ur poclet" haha, well, i understand that more than anyone.

Heck, i fall and i just have to climb up again, people fall, just wondering why i fall so hard and so repetative. I guess maybe for a better future? Or maybe just for punishment? I don't know but i doubt i can get the answer. Well, i screwed up my exam and i just have to redo again, maybe this is the test of stability?

Sometime i really regret what i must sacrifice to be more mature and loving, how i hope time can turn back, and i will not have to lost my two most loved one. Thinking bout it makes me regret. So everyone, please be strong and aprreciate what u have, when u lose it, there is no turning back. Don't be like me, regreting for the rest of my life.

Very Very Long Post

2007-10-15T07:44:00.000-07:00

This post is going to be SUPER LONG! I have so much to talk and complain about!! >_<

I went to Port Dickson for HAri Raya with my Other Aunt, no i am not a malay, i just wanna go have some fresh air before i am back again in this super hectic Kuala Lumpur. Yes, compared to other states, we are one of those who chase after time and i always pack my scedule as full as i can.(yes i finally realise i am a person who just can't sit still, i now even regret that why when i young i didnt do much activities, i wonder how you guys sit at home and online the entire day and fly thru your anime? I seem to be unable to stick my butt on my chair >_<)

The night before i had dinner at Lemon Garden at Shangri-La Hotel because my uncle won the lottry wahahaha! but not much la. To my suprice, its only RM80 for such prominent place. In there i can see many many mat salleh chef and customers, some chinese and few other races like japanese, spanish and so on. The place was just so beautiful!!!! I has malay, chinese, japanese, ITALIAN (SO MUCH!!) and modern food. It even has ice cream teppanyaki!

Here is the slimy but so so so so big chocolate fountain. Beside it there is a choclate pizza which is so nice! it is not moist but it holds the rich chocolate taste and it is not very bitter. Not so sweet and not bitter and its rather dry! Its so nice!!!!

What catches my eyes most is the WIDE WIDE selection of CHEESE!!!! I LOVE CHEESE!!! It provides you a WHOLE block of it and you can cut to your choise and eat with bread or whatsoever.

It has a WHOLE department for deserts. The desserts are made into bite size but they will never run out of it. If i took 10 pieces now, by the time i return to the same place the chef has replace 10 piece of pastry there. They even allow you to take the WHOLE cake, and best of all, its ok if u dun finish the food. You can just throw it away. 90% of the food is SUPERB but some may not taste so good, so your welcome to throw it away. Once you put down your fork and spoon and push your plate away, the waiter will come ands take it away form u, they are just so attentive!!!

Other than mouth watering deserts, main course are just so worth it. They hang the entire roast lamb and you can choose where to eat. They too have spegetti where you can just order and they will cook for u with your taste and request. I will say this is the best spegetti ever. Pizza uno lost XDXD

The salad bar is so petite and there is around 15 sauce surrounding the salad bowl. I got confused to which is which.

There were so many food searved!! I ate so much! When i am full i ran outside and jog for 15 minutes, then i go back in and eat again. I did that 4 times. Yes, why suffer for food, but i live to eat. And NO WAY i am letting so many cheese to run away from me. I have yet to taste each and everyone of it. FYI, even after 4 cycle of speeding up my metabolism and food digestion, i have YET to taste all the food searved. Plus, i only took one small bite of each. So....this buffet win hands down. Better than Gajoya.

When i walked out to the pub outside, they placed their stage for singer way up. And the singers has been singing and dancing for 2 hours and they never rest! They dun even look tired and when they did their salsa mix, they are really good dancers. Oh my.....of course, they sing well too.

The hotel design is nice and elegent. It really has the look of professionalism and completeness. I suddenly regret why i didnt take interior design -__-

Yes, they have MANY MANY OYSTERS!!!! I LOVE IT! That night is the day i dies and gone to heavem. I stole some of the pictures from jed seeds of life blog as i was lazy to take picture, concerntrating on eating. XDXD

Next up, the worst restaurant of my life.

We went there for dinner on the night i was at PD. The place was recommended by my Aunt and she said the palce was good. Yes, i admit, the place really do searve good food with very reasonable price. Hence there is alot of people during dinnertime. We ordered quickly and the order taker recommend that we dun take steamed fish (which was my fav -_-...) and take fried fish instead (which was my least fav --___--....). We followed her recommendation and ordered our food.

Then she went to the next table, housing more than 15 people and we heared her recommending steamed fish O_O! i was shocked and i presumed that the customer really really insisted on having the steamed fish. The customer actually rub backs with the order taken which made me assume that they are good friends.

Then we waited ONE HOUR and our food finally came, the kids was about to scream of gastric agony. The waiter told us that the rice is not cooked yet and asked if we want some plates to eat the vegies first. so we patiently waited. They served the next table before they served us our food. I again presume they ordered something easier to cook and i presume there were few chefs inside and one just cook faster than the other. I just assumed.

15 minutes later, i saw many many waiters taking out and handling rice to customers. Another 15 minutes later, we were still rice-less (i am inventing words) and i got irritated and walked towards the kitchen and asked them if the rice is cooked or not. The manager (i assume) said its ready and served us. Then we finished our food and realise, one of out food is not served yet, the childrens were waiting and kept their rice to eat this claypot toufu. Most childrens adore it.

I asked my maid to refill the chinese tea pot because i dun expect them to refill for you since they are so busy. The net table came oever and asked my maid to do work. I told him she is my maid and his answer was "dui". He didnt even apologize!

Then i saw 3 claypot toufu being served to other table whch came later than us, nevermind, we still waited. After another 15 minutes, i called the order taker to check on our final dish. She turn around making a VERY RUDE gesture and walked towards the kitchen. I still waited. I saw her walk in and out of the kitchen and then proceed to take order from other tables.I stared at her as she ran around and i again assume that our dish is going to be ready soon (cuz usually when the order taker dun respond to u, the dish is coming out soon) Then another 10 minute passed and i got up to the kitchen itself and asked for my dish.

The kitchen was stragically placed beside the counter, i asked an old man which i assume is one of the boss here and another red suit guy told me that they ran out of toufu. His exact words were (in cantonese direct translation) : "No more toufu, we finish edi, order another dish". Then i really really got furious when he added "but must wait 30 minutes to 1 hour ar". My exact words were(in cantonese direct translation) : "you all are mute is it? Do you even have the fucking curtesy to inform us? I even saw few of it served to the table which arrive later than us and you tell me u do not have anymore toufu? Its ok if it is adults but childrens are almost having gastric waiting for their dish, are you fucking out of your mind? Where is your brain? Do you know what does it mean by speaking and manners? i will bring this to the newspapers"

Actually i will not be this fired up if the food is not for children and if they have informed us.The cashier/manager/god cares who got so scared and apologize and want to replace the dish with another one and told us that it will be served immediately. I asked them to tell my uncle and let him decide.

Then when i got back to my seat, the childrens were staring at me and i realised i got fired up. *so ashamed* i apologized to my uncle and honestly, only when i went back to my seat i realised what i have said and done. Oh my *hides*

anyway, i will still bring this to the newspaper, no matter if their food is nice and cheep, i will no doubt make it public to enusre NO ON bullies my little cousins. Specially when i used to babysit them from young. My babies!! It seems that the red shirt guy really resemble the guy sitting on the next table. Maybe they are brothers.

This is the restaurant, it is located just beside a temple and it looks grand, but they really have serious attitude problem.

Next up, next post, i have been writig for 1 hour, will continue tomorrow

Catguin Art Studio!!!

2007-10-11T07:35:00.000-07:00

comments comments!!! i really need comments!!! any weird crazy lame comments!!!!!

The 2nd pic is a catguin. I think this one look cuter. Hehe, what u think?

seal slaughter

2007-10-07T04:00:00.000-07:00

this seems to be on since 6th february 07 and when i see this, i just could not believe we are that f**king barbaric

CATGUIN

2007-10-04T23:04:00.000-07:00

doing more research about cat guin, i am forming my own "catguin art studio" XDXD

but.... when in reality... catguin is like this

Ice cream.... this look so good...

2007-10-02T19:26:00.001-07:00

whoever invented ice cream is a saint

miow miow wan alcohol

2007-10-01T17:33:00.000-07:00

Glitter Graphics & Comments

mmiowww.............

Fun seems to be everywhere O_O

2007-10-01T08:04:00.001-07:00

As I look around and clash other people's blog, I found that everyone that I know of is going outstation. Darn, I so want to go too. Anyway, it is going to be a super busy holiday for me, I don't think it will be considered as holiday because I will be working and working and working all the time. Oh yah, dota too XDXD

Today I had an interesting offer, Miss teo (my boss for math tuition) offered me to conduct a art class on my own O_O!! omg!! I am so so so excited. Since this few months I got bored on the 2^nd day of break then it seems that I am not asked to go anywhere even they had plans (seems like sem 1) so I just have to get myself busy, which I successfully did. WAHAHAHAHAHHA!!! Hope I earn enough money to go on with life after this >_<!! I still have to retake my calculus exam. Aih, seriously wondering if I should continue pursuing actuarial science.

Anyhow, whoever have any idea for art or craft for toddles aged 6-10, please drop a comment, spam if u want. I consider everything cuz I need some brain juice. I lost it all from studying calculus >_<

The END OF MALAYSIA?

2007-09-28T01:55:00.001-07:00

As a Malaysian (who has not cared about politics and never shout merdeka on it's holiday) is again disappointed with our country. At first when I look at the news regarding Burma, I was thankful to be in Malaysia, then as I look at Malaysia today (search at google, u will be surprised) I got disappointed again.

At first when i watch the video, i have no idea what does it mean, then it became clearer and clearer, it seems that being the cheif judge can be arranged by sabo here and sabo there. However, it does not raise any fire in me as this is already expected. However, if something like this being disclosed, why arnt malaysia doing anything? Please, when something like namewee happened, it was SUCH a BIG BIG BIG story, but when this correption of judge video has been shown, honestly, you do not see ANY act from goverment. Chances are they are going to cover it up by asking the one in charge to come out, and apologize, cry then resign. Come on, FIRE THEM. Not ask them to resign, if they resign they still keep their EPF benefits!! However, this is malaysia, whenever the special "race" did something, it is always something explainable and something that is not wanted.

Honestly, if they want to keep this country in peace and not end up like myanmar, they should be all mean PLEASE think before they act. I don't mind if they continue to treat special "race" but don't make it so obvious until the public feel the heat and start to discriminate. Honestly, not even the unity band can save us that time. Today a signed petition is being passed to Agong, haha, we shall see if anything happens. I for one will anticipate how goverment "kau tim" this

Eye twister

2007-09-25T20:44:00.000-07:00

here is someone super obsess with starworld and origami

can u tell the if this picture is upside down?

best ever toilet!!!! for male, specially darren

Just for laughter

2007-09-23T01:39:00.000-07:00

accounts

2007-09-23T01:15:00.000-07:00

my accounts paper was easy, honestly, if i had sudies enough -_- i knew the first question adjusting the trail balance and produsing the balance sheet and income statement were not hard, they were easy actually.

but it didnt balance, i got home, used my pc to do the accounts and i got the answer in first trail. Next time i will ask mr lim to allow me to use laptop to do the exam. if u wan the answers, here, but it is not 100% true la, i think it should be liddat

exam answer

and have been playing dota ever since till today -_-lll

A little meaning full item here

2007-09-20T06:46:00.001-07:00

I have been visiting blogs and I found a rather meaningful blog entry, to know about it do go to her blog, "nostalgic memories" in my friend link. Should learn to appreciate things more, on the other hand, I am getting more and more giving up hope towards people. I know someone is losing something which I can say that I will no longer be giving. Complain about something so small a person said? Try dealing with more things in life, u will never understand. Honestly, sometime people are just not worth it.

Fun of just killing

2007-09-20T06:31:00.000-07:00

I played dota and this is one of the most fun game i ever had. Killing hero is a easy thing. Of course i only put on easy computer hero XDXD But hey! i am a noob. I got too much money at the end i decided to go just a bit more crazy and this is what happen

YEs i bought myself 2 divine rapier (but buy it only if u know u just wun die) and it was fun killing att the hero which level is only around 10-15 XDXD. Well, that is the fun times XDXD

Beep beep

2007-09-18T23:19:00.001-07:00

First you honk now you beep. Bleh, today's paper of professional writing I didn't do that well in it. I noticed that I keep on writing the wrong word and my writing got really really stale. Strange *frown*. Then when I tried to clean up the grammar and beautify it, I see so many grammar error I just had to cancel the whole page and rewrite in the last 30 minutes.

Aih….

Then just now had chicken rice, quite nice, you should try. When driving out I realize that PJ seriously had too much schools. Specially Jalan Gasing where there ia a school at the beginning (catholic high), one at the ending (Taman Petaling), and 3 in between (bb primary, assunta and la salle) So no matter where we turn to, there is a traffic jam because of the school. Luckily only some schools let the student go late, and then we manage to escape a 30 minute tied down jam in the area.

So sien!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honk! If you’re a Malaysian

2007-09-17T23:48:00.001-07:00

This is the most interesting book I have encounter (after spending 10 years of my life mostly at mph) and it is by far the best light reading book. I suggest you to beg, borrow or steal this book. I persistently read this book and let it not rest until I finish the entire thing. It has about 50 chapters and 3-6 pages per chapter and I finished it last night. Refusing to sleep until I read it all up. However, this book is best suited for those who have motherly instinct or is a mother in law. Most girls have motherly instinct, but boys also can find this amusing.

My favourite chapter is about deep frying a fish. Lydia asked a old aunt of her where did the big black mark in her face came from. The Aunty reply "fish lar.." and Lydia asked " did the fish bite you?" remembering about the news a boy was choked to death by a fish which jumped into his throat. The aunt said" no, frying fish la".

It is always a girl (who cooks) dilemma when it come to deep frying fish. It is tricky even we have covered the fish in corn flour and patted it dry. Once we put it in the wok, we will run to a safe distant. I recalled when I had to turn the fish over to ensure it is evenly cooked, i used the wok cover as shield and slowly get closer to my enemy of popping oils. This is where I get my fencing skill from. It seems that fish does not like being fried. In the fish mind, it goes "nah, take this take that! WHAHAHAHAHAHAH Now you know how painful it is to be fried in oil!"

Then again……..most boys (or guys which the girl is serving to) loves fried fish than steamed or stewed.If the boy complains that the fish is not friend enough or too salty, i always shut them up by asking them to fry it instead. One brave young soul did give it a try and he almost burn the house down. If his aunt didn comt to rescue him, he would have been living in a tent by now

Calculus*bad day = me

2007-09-14T10:44:00.001-07:00

Alamak, today whatever I have spotted that will come out during the calculus exam, every single one of them came out. But the bad thing is, I keep on reading and reading and memorizing what I spot, when I enter the exam hall, I FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING. I can even forget the name. One of my favourite question is "using the definition of limit, proof XXX" but I forgotten what is definition of limits. And later only I found out which one it is. Its my favourite absolon delton, ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Best is I did it on question 3, which has no relation to it. I got RM700 ready to retake this damn subject next sem. I hope next sem Dr Chen can be the lecturer in charge. If not, sure fail again. Honestly, this exam is one VERY easy exam, and I regret doing so badly. I lost my chance in it

Then when I got out of the exam hall, the utar ceiling board fell on my head. YES IT FELL ON MY HEAD. Sue utar.

This morning when driving, some nut case was driving in my lane in front of me but going in the opposite direction. I was not awake (its 6am!) and I notice this 2 lights (the car headlights) coming to my direction, and best is, he has been on my lane, coming at me, at high speed, and he never budged and stayed at the speed and lane even after I quickly turn away from him. Had I not woken at that time just before the crash, I wud end up in hospital. Come to think of it, its better if I end up in the hospital. No need take exam. Can use albi.

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Such bad luck. Maybe it shows that actuarial science student have hard head. Maybe if all of us take actuarial science, we dun need helmet anymore

Exam Week

2007-09-11T21:09:00.001-07:00

The last few days I was bothering many people. And most of those people are somewhat not that close to me before. And the incident follows and now I am a mother of quadruplets in my tummy, chasing the daddy (from sungai long) for custody and cash. Then I became a night owl and start to run around looking teri beri to yam cha at wee hours of the night. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, I didn't study nuts during my exam. But my hopes were practically shattered with the coursework mark I had.

The last few days was a blast, but I have to get used to not smsing carrot as he wun reply my sms anyway, seems like I am off his friendster list and blog friends. Well, I guess its hard for guys to let go than girls. Or maybe its just me? The carefree one? Ya right, not after my exam yesterday.

The exam went badly, tho I know how to do most of it, the chances of me getting high marks is none. Many people seems to have forgotten to do the 7 mark question (including jess and ivan) but that's the ONLY question I can do and quite confident that it is right. Why? Cuz after the exam I realize the genius of my class was sitting behind me and I asked him for the answer XDXD But everything else is just pure havoc. Hoping to pass. If I pass, at least I get the chance to improve my cgpa next sem by retaking.

Why do I still take actuarial science when math is something I really am no good at and hating it? Well, other than the fact it gives good money, I have nothing else I can do other than this subject. Before I transfer to this course, I had checked every single one of the programmes offered, I read every single detail bout it. But it seems nothing I would be interested in. Many (AND I MEAN MANY, around 49%) asked me to do arts subject like social science and advertising. But I am not too sure I like to socialize after the big bang I had last birthday, I concluded my social skill is nil. Then the next 50% asked me to do management. Yes, I LOVE MANAGEMENT! But there is NO management subject in utar!!! >_<!! Other than construction management. If I were to take that, you can see my head hanging in the pole replacing jalur gemilang, courtesy of the goh family. Oh, the remaining 1% is dolphin. Who STRONGLY supports me in actuarial science. You all know why.

My head been pondering which is the best choice. I guess, time will tell, I cant do anything now but finish my exam. I know teri beri had the same dilemma. And no, accounting is my last option.

Aih….

Soon I will lose it..aih

2007-08-26T23:06:00.001-07:00

From past events I have learned that I am not suppose to blog about my thru feelings, at least not about bad things. But during practical today I went around and look at other people's blog. Didn't know that many expressed their feelings. And I guess its better if I express mine as it has been cooped up for days and I am very sensitive towards things nowdays.

It all started way back, when they all talk in suspicious tones and start to write in Chinese. A look at my calendar tells its for me, I was so glad. Days after days passed by and it seem more and more obvious as our dolphin come and ask me each time they thought of something to do. Getting something for a person who is half guy and half girl is very hard, even till one night our dear dolphin had to call me and ask what I want. -_-ll worst is I don't know what to reply him as I gave it much thought, I dunno what I want.

For the two weeks before the day of my birth, i can see how they are crapping bout it. And It makes me so happy, of course, I had to pretend that I dunno about it. I tried to forget it, but it apprears in my dream. The happiness that they brought me just knowing they are planning something, makes me smile and giggle unconsciously. Making people stare at me. I even giggled when I ate marmite. Which at that point, I dun mind if they buy me a can of marmite. I am just happy enough already.

One night, I realized that tong tong and ky live on a very tight budget. I asked them not to overspend. How I wish I could tell them that even a can of marmite will do good. But knowing them, they will not admit that they are doing something for me, yet. So…I had to put it in a subtle way. I am more worried that they spend too much and of all days my day falls in the end of the month where people usually don't have much.

My dad had warned me, my family had warned me, I am not suppose to celebrate my birthday this year because of a Chinese taboo I carry since birth. Actually its carried from generation and generations. I am not allowed to have a cake nor presents. Most people have this taboo as when they reach 19 it's a bad year and we ignore that we are 19, we always say that we are20. In addition to that my uncle and grandma passed away on 39 and 69. I cannot blame my family. But I dare not tell my friends. I told dolphin but in a subtle way. Cuz deep inside me, I want to celebrate it, very much.

When dolphin again called and ask what I want, I told him that it is not to make it too big and expensive. I would love it if we just sit and eat and chat like what happen during shabu shabu. I don't have anything specific but just sitting down and crap. That's what made us best friends in the beginning. I can still remember the 4am calls.

Then it seems that the discussion got intense. I can feel it as dolphin get stressed and stressed each day. I could not read ky nor tong tong's face when they are sad so I could only rely on dolphin which breaks my heart into tiny pieces when I see him that stressed.

Finally the day approaches. I look at dolphin and he seem so stressed. I ask him what happen and all he say is nothing. Then I thought, if dolphin is this stressed, what about others? Will they find this very irritating? Will they just burst and then I would not have them as my friends again? My worried grow and packed with days and days of test and exam and stress from work and stress from house, I am ready to burst. Not burst in anger, but burst in tears.

My eye turned red but I forced myself to suck it in. But something like this will never skip dolphin's eye. For one second it turned red and I tried to hide it in. And then the conversation began and the stories I heard broke my heart even more. I was sad, unhappy and really really heartbroken. I could not believe what happen and how can my best friend turn this way? Have I tot they are my best friend but they have not? Then my aunt's word rang in my mind, there is no such thing as a true friend. Then I totally lost it. I could not decide to keep my faith on my loved ones or trust my beloved one. What should I do?? My heart was nothing but in pieces again.

I lied in my bed and gave a call to turtle, which is the source of comfort I always get when tears drip. But sadly he was busy. So I turned to another good friend of mine. I found some comfort, but not much as she was also very mad once I told her what I heard.

Moment of consciousness I later had. In my mind, I thought, am I very weak? I think again that for the past few months, I have at least seek comfort from turtle twice or more. Each time I am in tears till it dried. Reason turtle became the source of comfort is that I know he won't tell much people. But I stressed again, I am not blaming you and your not guilty. Because I know carrot will know about it from you, I expected that he will be abit unhappy, but I NEVER expected him to burst into anger. To me I do not worry if carrot know, cuz in my mind, the things I heard is true and I think he should know it too since he is involved, but I got a shock of my life when I receive his 10 sms long sms.

Before that, I sat in front of my pc and played harvest moon, trying to get things out of my mind and tried to rationalize it. Then I choose not to listen to anyone (sorry darling) and I choose to just ignore what happen as I didn't want anything to happen. I sit in front of the computer and then hope time pass and have a great time on my birthday. I was anticipating what they have planned. And tho guilt has covered me up to my nose as I found out everyone is broke and turtle had to swim from stapak and back for test at 3pm. So I just say, stop worrying and things will work out on its own.

12 am struck and I am delighted to received many sms wishing me a good birthday. Which of course make me smile. I was happily gaming harvest moon and then suddenly I was slapped with a 10 sms long sms. And I was worried, I defended myself. But the more I said the more he didn't understand me and I wanted to give him a call but he refuse to answer. I want to know what happened and I called turtle and dolphin up from their dreamland. Turtle think that it no big deal and dolphin as scared as hell. Dolphin like any protective bf called him and tried to explain but it make carrot irritated. And I did warned him not to call, but dolphin is very guilty and called and called. I tried to stop, and I force him to stop, but did he ever stop, I just dunno, but from ky's blog, it seems that he never stopped.

I played the game till midnight, till morning, till 6am where I am suppose to go uni. I cannot open my eyes, I have been awake for 24 hours and my eye is about to drop out. In addition to that I was not feeling well again. During this month of ghost festival, I am always not feeling well. I asked dolphin to call me when they are going out. I will join them, as I didn't want to disappoint them. Which now reminds me to clear things out, I DID NOT SAY I WANT TO CANCLE THE CELEBRATION, I am just trying to defend myself as sms were getting vulgar and i just cant make you understand what I am trying to say.

Next morning I woke up seeing someone apologizing and I guessed that dolphin again told him what happen. I didn't even bother asking dolphin to stop telling as I know it is too late to stop this fire from spreading. Blame me for sleeping so late and blame me for not asking dolphin to keep it to himself. Strangely, today everyone is extra expressive and in the wrong way.

But I don't blame dolphin, his act was purely in the name of love, I don't blame carrot, his act is purely in the name of buddies and I don't blame turtle, his act was purely in the name of curiosity.

The entire day I tried to get carrot out of my mind, but I kept on miscalling tong tong, turtle, jian shin and dolphin with carrot's name. Again and again. I just wonder what is wrong with me…

The fact he does not reply me sms make me worry more, I wonder what can I do to amend it, but then I realize, if what I have done for the past few months has not proven what all of you guys are to me, then nothing will as I have no more idea how to tell him. Now I actually ask turtle what should I do, but it seems like there is nothing I can do.

Of course I cannot do anything now as my presents just give him such an intense aura. Tho I wish that will not happen.

Back to the day, the entire day I missed him. Actually. (sorry la darling, friend only k?) And my day goes by forcing myself to smile and crap more. I tried so hard to get it out of my mind that I almost got insane.

The next day thursday, I could not wake up as I again played harvest moon from night to 6am again. And I as well didn't want to go work. Yes I have lost ALL MY RESPONSIBILITY. I guess if this thing happen between me and turtle or tong tong I will also feel the same. First time I was so depressed first time I force myself to forget, first time I just couldn't, even tho I tot I succeeded.

On Thursday when dolphin is working, I was gaming at home (I chose to game instead of work when I can still go to work, I woke at 12 the work at 3. Surprising for a non gamer like me?) I keep on gaming and focused on how to win the game. My eyes were glued on the clock telling that I should stop and study, but I just can't. As I am getting better, which I tot I am, crossx smsed me and asked me what happened, but I really dunwan to tell him as I refuse to think about it again. Then a reply in sarcasm from him made me think again. Yes turtle, I told you I was ok, I am ok as I am not mad or hurt with carrot, but I just keep on thinking about him. Yes,dolphin is going to kill me but it's the truth, the flashback I get is always about class school, what I have said and what I have done.

On Friday I woke up again afraid on how to face him. I arrange my account class to be from 4 to 5.30 so I wun bump to him. During exam I saw him, I approached him but he walked away, so……. I guess he needed time. So I decided to attend account tutorial at 4. Funny is he didn't attend class earlier, so my wait was wasted. Not completely tho as I slept for a while and reenergize myself. I woke up dreaming bout him. This time, dolphin is so going to kill me. Now I am here thinking I was fine after one week, but once something triggers me, I just think about him again. Aih…no.i am nto in love with him (that's just to clear things up for dolphin before he run carrot over with his red car)

Conclusion: SORRY for not believing in you hon tong, I wish I can tell in your face but I don't have the guts to. Sorry for creating this trouble. Sorry carrot for making you angry and lose your trust in me. Sorry darling for everything. And sorry turtle for always looking for you for source of comfort. I apologize deeply and hope you can accept me as your friend again. But I wait till you are fine.

CLOSING DOWN OF MY BLOG!!!!!!

2007-08-11T02:20:00.001-07:00

At one glace you will think that I am closing down my blog, I meant that I am closing down my blog, I spell it correctly, I highlighted it and the question remains, is the statement above true?

The answer is…no.

I am not closing my blog, I am just simply attracting you to look at my post on this long dead blog. I will not close this blog, I m just bored and I have nothing else to say XDXD

Ok, for the past few weeks, many things happen, we had alternate test each week for discrete math and calculus, and I didn't blog about one of the big events, UTAR BALL 2007. And I am not going to blog about it now XD

In summary of what happen past few weeks,

I went to the august pc fair twice and our dolphin actually bonded with my cousin. If you need someone to crap with, patt patt and dolphin and carrot will be the best choice. Altho they will threaten you that they will cut you up into 4 pieces and each will be cooked with original flavoring, spicy, black pepper and mushroom (sounds like kfc) but it is a good price to pay for to inject some psychotic virus into your brain.
Now our dear Nostalgia jess is sotong sotong chan!!!!!!!! Hehe
Sotong speaks EXACTLY like turtle. Wonder their child will have a turtle shell and tentacles.
I was addicted to RO game, Ragnarok battle offline and I played for 3 nights consecutive until my lappie runs our of battery. It had to turn black when I was playing halfway because I refuse to stop when they keep on warning me about the low battery.
My brain is about to explode.
I Hate my business accounting lecturer who suddenly make another online exam. THEY PROMISED 2 EXAMS ONLY!!!!
Today was the public speaking competition. I actually got our dear Carrot and Patt Patt to join the competition. Its good thing that I had their IC number and ID number beforehand XDXD
I have some important announcement to make : (beware, it is gonna be a long read ahead)

Today is the public speaking competition, and it is going to be my last event for the next three year (I think). I had enough of DSA, I got an information that they blacklisted me because I was dishonest as a treasurer. Then I thought, the finance actually pass my budget and report, money is paid to UTAR Finance, and everything is being submitted to Finance Department and approved and settle last YEAR (yes last YEAR) and now they suddenly accuse me of being dishonest? Well, I thought about it, it must have been the whole letter or certificate thing. It must be SUPER coincident that you will find fault in someone after A WHOLE YEAR and after they had USED YOU to the MAX. My temper had submerged and I am letting the whole certificate thing go, but they always create things for you. No wonder one by one they people who work in DSA leave the place, and the position is now filled with Indians and more Indians.

I guess they have nothing else to say and nothing else to do because they know it is hard to convience me to work for them anymore. So like the art of war, if you cannot make the person work for you, kill them for they carries the risk of being an enemy. Now is week 11 and for the past 3 weeks, I have looked around me and pay attention to the event that was organized. I joined those event which are mathematic competition, Utar ball and many more. When I attend the event, I looked around as the committee ran around doing their stuff and looking super busy. When I look at them, it reminds me of myself. Then I wonder, why do I love to do events? The happiness from event organizing is when the VIPs and people praise you for your good work. Happiness also come when you see your event was such a success, and also the amount of friends and popularity you gain puts a smile on your face. You win some friends, you eventually lose some friends. I have lost many. In addition to that, friends you gain from events may not be close to you. Popularity is not a fun thing to have as people constantly, AND I MEAN CONSTANTLY judge you. One moment people will stare at you and idolize you, but once you did something wrong, you're out of the book.

One of the advantages of organizing event is also you can get first class seat in most of the event and you get to decide what is going to happen. Like a boss. I might not be able to attend utar ball but luckly I am able to purchase committee ticket because of the people I know. I get a cheaper price and also I have the seat just in front of the stage! Lucky le?

Thinking back, I list down what event I had once organized:

Safety Campaign (Assistant Secretary)
City Tour January 2007 Intake (Treasurer)
Ice Breaking January 2007 Intake (Refreshment and Ceremony Manager)
Microsoft Vista Campus Launch (Publicity Team and emcee)
Registration, Mass Call and Campus Tour May 2007 Intake (Secretary)
City Tour May 2007 Intake (FICT Coordinator)
Ice Breaking May 2007 Intake (Assistant Secretary)
Public Speaking 2007 (Vice Chairperson)

Now that I look at it, I was actually disappointed at the low number of event I did. However, looking back I did one event in 2 months (almost) while juggling with my studies, not too bad actually (perasan edi XDXD)

Organizing event is fun, making new friends, some idolize you, many know you (try being an emcee in front of thousands of student) and too many will judge you. I realized that I am slacking in my resolutions. I would love to maintain organizing events, but I will keep it OFF UTAR and keep it outside for profit purpose. If I were to organize anything in Utar, I will ensure that it will be done through lecturer and other departments OTHER THAN department of student affairs. This is because that I learn from this public speaking competition, when you are under someone who truly cares for your being and want to make Utar more active, they will help you with their heart. It is actually not as hard as those manager and officer thinks. They are so afraid of taking risk thus making people HATE (yes, H.A.T.E) organizing event under DSA. (I am getting vulgar) They had to SUCK UP the managers SHRINKING BALLS (which is why they say this cannot that cannot and play safe) and make other student LOOK DOWN AT YOU and telling you that why can't you make this event more interesting? The managers with absolute no balls put red tapes around you so they won't get fired.

I can STILL remember the black guy who made my carnival a flop. I will make him suck his own balls someday. I personally think it is useless to work for someone who take care of their job and eat your heart up.

If and only if I am to ever organize anymore event, I will directly consult the dean from today onwards.

Then my mind wonders again, how am I going to fill up my time? SNAP! A lightning strike on me (not literally la) I now have to teach kumon student, study ACTUARIAL SCIENCE (math is my worst enemy) and i have to bond with my close friends. I no longer want to know many people (well actually they know me cuz I can never remember their name unless they change it to Kelvin or Calvin or Kevin or anything that ends with "vin"), I need to have more and more close friends that will stick to you thru thick and thin, someone you can count on. I had just too many things that I wanted to do which until today I have not succeeded. I have an entire list of it but I never got the chance to do so. I am now age 19 and my special age is going to a waste by using it on organizing events only to benefit others, it is time to be selfish again.

I want to

Go out and play with my friends more (I SOOOO REGRET not going with my friends to Yong Tou Fu lunch at ampang because of the city tour meeting I had)
Learn to dance (and this time I am serious, I will pay for the classes and join them and practice DAILY)

Latin dance
- Salsa
- Barcelona
- Jive
- Cha Cha
Ballroom Dance
- Waltz
- Quick Step
- Foxtrot
Sexy Dance
- Pole Dancing
- Belly Dancing
- Cayote Dance
Hip Hop Dance
- Shuffle
- Breakdance (I might have second thought about this)
- Pop
- Capoiera (this the dolphin might need to think twice before letting me try)

Make more girl friends (I seriously have too much male friends and my best girl friend is going to America soon. Now… where is sotong??)
Learn the tricks of car fixing and driving faster but safely.
Continue my Taekwondo to 3^rd dan
Read many books. Specially the art of war.
LEARN MANDARIN!!!!! (ARGH!!! Every single one in my class is a mandarin speaker!! I dunwan to be a banana T_T)
Learn gourmet / fine dining (yes, I wanna upgrade my cooking skill)
Learn bakery (Well, to make delicious multi layered and high quality pastries)
Take fashion designing lesson (Realizing my childhood dream)
Take tailoring lesson (I have a dream since young to sew my own ballroom gown >_<)
Improve on my general knowledge

Finally, after such a long blog, I will continue to burn my brain with actuarial science and improve towards something useful in being a girl. At least I don't need to worry about polishing my resume anymore with the amount of event I once organized. Now I better polish it with a 4.0cgpa. XDXD

pictures taken from public speaking competition

Thank God It’s Friday

2007-07-28T09:08:00.001-07:00

Well, the day didn't really started well but then it got better. Or shall I say, the evening was really fun and relaxing.

The morning was again hell as I hated the DSA for their decisiveness. They further enhance their blackmailing to me. Seriously, on second thoughts, I am going to seriously pay them a visit next time if I am successful.

Friday classes as usual was packed and we have programming exam during the 12-2pm breaks. The exam is continuous for every single Friday there is. Soon our brain will crack. The day was as well ok and unbelievably the evilness of dsa continue to spread and I got so fed up I brought the matter to the dean. The dean say from now on whenever proposal are being sent to DSA, try sending a copy to the dean so he can follow up. That is if I want to do so. I am getting so tired of DSA. However watching them being stared at by the boss is kinda fun XDXD Depends on my mood. I filed several complains and if my mood gets worse, compliant letter will be sent officially to vice presidents of Utar. We shall see ya? *grins*

The evening however is a total 180 degree change. We went to MC to look at Carrot's dead hamster. I pity it but I did not catch the glimpse of it. Carrot cleaned he cage before I catch hold of him. I can see his preference in the hamster has seriously changed. But I cant blame him, he is filled with guilt. Strangly, the hamster is only offensive towards carrot and he demonstrate it by holding the hamster. Tho I cant see the hamster teeth actually sinking on his palm, but he yelled in pain a few times. When Mr tong tong put his finger in front of the hamster's mouth, it just refuses to bite him. Mr Tong tong actually irritate the hamster with his finger, practically pushing his finger inside the hamster's mouth, the hamster refuses to bite his finger. Strange. As for me, I was worried that It will bite me, but somehow it had fun running up and down my jeans and hiding in my jacket, but no signs of biting. Hmmmmmmm

We went to SS2 and it jammed for nearly 30 minutes before we got inside. IT was around 7pm when we finally decided to eat shabu shabu at SS2 which serve steamboat buffet for RM20. Personally, I think the sunway's steamboat buffet is much more worth it, but I am not complaining about the steamboat there because i had tons of fun.

Highlights of the 3 + hour of Shabu Shabu we had

Its official that we have a pentagon love between Dolphin, Turtle, Carrot, Tong Tong and me (I am only connected to dolphin, he is the one being bisexual).
The boys might be blacklisted by the Shabu Shabu Restoran because they finished up the deserts from the fridge within 1 minute and Carrot finished up few BUCKETS of ice cream. I am not joking folks! He ate few big sized buckets which you can see if you go to luca luca or baskin robbins. I think he will go on an I ce cream diet the new few weeks.
Tong Tong will be having phobia of seaweed.
Jess likes cuttlefish!! *take notes*
I tot turtle's leg was a snake when he suddenly use his leg and touch mine underneath the table. I screamed! Bad bad Turtle, note, dun pass signals to unaware girls using legs under the tables. Specially when the girl is taken, or else you will be kicked in the rear end.
Dolphin lost to Carrot and Tong tong. Guys can really eat O_O
Jess is really pitiful, she keep on moving from her seat from the left to right then to the opposite right then went to the left and the out again. @_@
I think I gained 70kg from the last meal
New menu made : Raw Egg + Ice Cream. Good for cirit birit. Wonder today will carrot be able to see movie with Turtle

Utar

2007-07-27T01:37:00.001-07:00

Haih, sometime I wonder what is Utar, so I just can say, utar is utar. There are very mush issue in utar, but one thing I am grateful of utar is that the fee is low enough for Chinese who cannot afford it and also thankful to those people who fight for tar college and hence we can get our cert somewhere and get a life eventually.

However, being nobel on the top and high management no doubtly is fair. The departments are running haywire and terrible behind the top management's eye. Utar management specially the office (General office) is very obvious having very bad organization and is agree by all the student that they sux! My Account lecturer told me that he is having trouble with the office, and all he want is few pieces of papers! As for DSA, they ar nothing but pople who thinks they are noble but gives empthy promises. They want to make it active, they have vision and objective, and they are like an angle, if you are a freshie, you will think they are angle. However, after you have sign the deal and did the job required, they will show their devil side and expect you to pay badly.

Yes, I did all I need to do in src, nevertheless one of the very committed committee, and I am not given a cert because am in foundation. They say I am not considered as SRC and are guest invited to help out. If I am so, why am I forced to be in every meeting that usually at 8pm (that time I stay at Subang and the meeting is at SS2). So in another word, I am being cheated again (YES AGAIN) by the DSA. And they nevertheless love to use blackmail to resolve things.

These are the blind spots of utar. The dark side of Utar. I do not deny that MCA is by all mean ment best for us, and I am really thankful for Utar, however, the department management are terrible, some of them thinks that the student can't do anything (which most of the time being blackmail and we really can't do anything) because we are poor. There is always good and bad. But I hope this will not continue on in future.

One thing is for sure, the manager of DSA PLEASE PRAY that I will not be successful. I WILL REMEMBER THEM

What a Week

2007-07-15T17:06:00.001-07:00

It's been long since I last posted but then it is a rather crazy week so far.

I introduce Carrot and tong tong to work at Kumon and they were not used to the system. They complained that they worked till their eye fall off.
Yesterday when dolphin sent carrot home, he jumped off dolphin's car when he stopped at red light. And you say my driving is dangerous. At least Carrot didn't jump off my car.
Tong tong and carrot screamed when I drove them to Kumon. Seem like my driving is still scary. Funny, my cousin enjoyed it and wanted me to go faster. I guess its in the Goh family genes to be fast and furious.
Calculus exam today was nothing but havoc. I hope that I will not fail. Out of 5 question I only manage to do 2. Great. One of it is something I have not seen before, no matter how many time I look in the text book or notes, I could not find that question or something that is similar. OR even related to it!!! Out of 5 question, 2 of them ask us to prove the formula. Lime Prove the definition of derivative or exponential derivative. All hail Actuarial Science. ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I studies for hours last night for nothing! I saw both tong tong and carrot crying after the test.
Dolphin was sick. I bet he got it from me. First time ever he was sick for 3 days in a row. And its fever, make me rather worried and bored. Yes, worried bout him SPECIALLY when he INSISTED on driving home when he is dizzy (then again I doubt he would be any better if I drive, specially the way I drive) and bored when it is the first time in my life I spend so much time (since I moved to PJ ) at home. Cuz on Thursday I had to go home early because dolphin is sick. I guess this month's pay will not be much. I wanted so badly to go out today, even tho it is night I just feel like walking to the nearest playground and play. Or I feel like driving to MV or calling up turtle or jess or ky for yam cha. Then again, I channel all my energy and wash my car.
Tomorrow Business Accounting exam is a multiple choice question where it is online and you can do it anywhere you want anytime you want. Guess it means many people will gather up in gangs to do the question. Then again, there will not be much benefit.
Was watching TV today and saw this very interesting show, called Jane Date. It says about a girl who is an assistant editor (which she stayed for many years in that position and didn't get promoted which she deserve) and his cousin is getting married. The cousin is somewhat bitchy and is always insulting Jane because she got married first. As revenge, Jane needed to look for a handsome guy as a partner to go with on the wedding day to show people that she is not unwanted. It is a series of comedy when she is getting dates. One of it actually is gay. Then at the end she failed because all the guys she was with are total idiots or playboy. At the end she learned that life is not that perfect and do your best, be positive and god will get it done for you. She finally realized that having a boyfriend is not actually that important. Then something struck me, I too think that sometime the way you look at life, as long as you look from the positive side, even the most worst can be nice. Cuz one of the character inside actually have a mom and dad who hates her and no matter what she accomplish, they both dislike and thinks that their son is best when he is a drug addict. Sounds familiar? Hehe

I find that some people are determined that they do not need a partner that soon. Honestly speaking many people thinks that way too. No matter you have it or not, you are waiting for someone special and not by specially scouting for him or her. She or he will appear in front of you and you will be dazzled with his or her personality. Hmmmmm I guess i would be killed if I made the statement indicating that I should have not be in a relationship that early ya? Haha. There are pro and cons in it, its up to how mature you are in handling it. And most importantly the question of the reason you have a partner. To waste time? Fill time or to be with and share commitment?

One more thing, I find myself worry bout things too much. Must learn to take it easy sometimes and let Buddha do the rest.